Everything I Could Never Tell You

My Thoughts Exactly

Hey guys!  Just for you all TWO poems in ONE day! Everything just came to me last night and I had to write it down, so here you go!  Hope you like it! And BTW everyday I think of these words, and I DO NOT promote self-harm!

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Why am I living?

When it just feels like I'm dying?

I feel like my job

Is to ruin people's calm.

I am...

An accident.

A mistake.

A surprise.

Not meant to be here.

I have tried again and again

To redeem myself but instead became

My adopted parents living nightmare.

I'm sure I'd be happier

Where I know someone would love me forever.

I'd escape this living hell

And be sure to tell

My forever

Lover

The struggles I faced,

The dreams I chased,

The tears I cried

Every lonely night,

The hugs I never received

When they were most needed,

The encouragement

That I would be 'okay' in the end.

I don't want to live anymore

I want to open the exit door

That leads me away from the war.

I don't care if I look like a coward

My time is up; this is my last hour.

I have never been kissed

So I guess I wouldn't be missed.

The end of these words

Is the beginning of my rebirth.

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I am adopted, I do love my adopted family but I am not like them so I get in trouble more often, and have my own ways, so it is a bit difficult, but I wouldn't trade them for the world.  I love them with all my heart and don't know where I'd be without them. So thank you, my family, I love you to the moon and back! *insert kissy face emoji*  :)   Please comment and vote!  Thanks for your support, dearies!