Had To Be You||N.H

Chapter 42-Fighting with my mind

*Niall's POV*

I was tossing and turning all night, I couldn't sleep at all, it felt so weird without Ella beside me. I miss her so much, why did I have to be an idiot and fuck it up.

I really didn't think Ally would find me once again. She was only a one night stand and she had to come and ruin everyone's lives? She must be the wicked witch of the west I tell you.

I let out a sigh and slowly get out of my bed onto the warm carpet. I walked down the spiral staircase and walked into the kitchen to hunt for some food.

I opened the kitchen cupboard and found some fruit loops, I picked up the red box and carried it over to the white  kitchen bench.

I placed it down and opened another cupboard to grab one of the white bowel and the silver spoon.

I walked over to the fridge and grabbed the milk, I twisted the cap off the milk and poured the milk into the bowel filled with colourful cereal.

I took a seat on my sofa and turned on the TV, the room filled with laughter, I looked up at the TV screen and saw spongebob was on.

Huh, Ella's favourite show. I ran my fingers through my hair and picked up my spoon and placed a mouthful of cereal into my mouth.

"NIALL!" Someone exclaimed.

I looked up seeing Harry standing there with his hair back in a man bun with his white shirt and sweat pants. His jaw was clenched and his hands made a fist.

"I really hate giving you a key." I sighed.

"You need to man up." He spat.

"Why?" I asked placing more of my cereal in my mouth.

"Ella hasn't been able to sleep and your doing nothing?" He asked more calmly.

"Well I haven't either so I guess Ella and I are in the same boat."

"Niall she is your fiancé! You shouldn't have to wait till Emily's and I's wedding day." He sighed.

"But she wants that, so I'm respecting that Harry." I said placing the empty bowel on the coffee table.

"But Niall." Harry started off.

"She loves you but one of your one night stands had to get in the fucking way but." Harry said walking over towards me, I quickly cut him off.

"No buts Harry, Ella wants time so I'm giving her that, I've hurt her badly and she needs nothing more then her best friend Harry!" I shouted.

"I fucked up Harry so much and I can't help it anymore. I don't know what to do! She keeps me sane and I'm going to lose my mind in a moment of she doesn't come back Harry I just can't cope anymore." I screamed taking deep breaths as tears rolled down my cheeks.

"Come here." Harry said calmly wrapping his arms around me.

"It will be okay Niall."

"But she keeps me sane Harry."

"It will be okay one day Niall, and when that day comes she will be there too."