Taming His Mistress [Revised]

(20) Let Me Fix You

Angeline's POV:

I'm not sure what caused it. Perhaps it's all the miles I've flown just to see him. All I wanted to do was talk to him. Apologize for my outburst. When I found out Richard took him on this little vacation I was worried. My anxiety kicked in. He was so far away from me, how could I protect him? Why would he run off with Richard? Then Marylynn confessed to what she said to him. That pissed me off. After yelling at her, I got on my private jet. I needed to explain things. All of this is probably confusing as hell to Shadow. I needed to tell him that I'm very fucked up. Things between me and him probably won't work because I need to be fixed, and I'm not sure that's possible.

All of that changed when I saw that dark-haired demon with her claws on Shadow. She was inches from his face with her slutty lips. First I felt betrayal. Did this mean Shadow didn't feel for me like I thought he did? A big part of me wanted to be his entire world. I suppose that's a good thing. Next, was my territorial instincts. She was touching what's mine and that was not okay. Yet, he wasn't mine. I snatched her back and sent her on her merry way. That's what led to this. The sweet 30 seconds of heaven when our lips met. It was like the universe was waiting for this moment. It should have happened sooner.

I pulled back and looked into his beautiful eyes. Shock and lust were present as he tried to catch his breath. I wanted to apologize. To tell him I didn't mean it. But his lips found mine again. At first, I felt fear. However, he wasn't seeking dominance. His kiss was very soft as his arms circled around me gently.

After the kiss, I wrapped my arms around him and hugged him. His arms tightened around my waist and he laid his head on my shoulder. I could feel his boner through his slacks. A smile tugged at my lips and I tightened my hold around him.

"I'm sorry," He said. I pulled back in confusion. He had tears in his eyes and his bottom lip quivered. There's the pity that I was hoping to avoid. But I played it cool, hopeful it was about something else.

"For what?" I asked, wiping a tear that escaped his eye.

"For what that piece of shit did to you," He whispered angrily. I sighed and closed my eyes. Of course, Richard told him. I opened my eyes again, ready to find the pity. To find the look of fear and uncertainty. But instead, I found his pained expression mixed with anger. His look was something I haven't seen in such a long time.

"It's alright. Would you like to go back to my room? Rent some movies?" I offered. He smiled, causing more tears to escape.

"Yes please." He said and I took his hand, leading him away from the bridge to my waiting car.

We drove back to my hotel room in silence. We both were probably trying to figure out what just happened. I unlocked my door and invited Shadow inside. He looked around the room in awe. I'm sure it was a lot nicer than Richard. I already had to argue with him about paying for the trip. Even though he knows I will always win, he tries anyway. Eventually, Marylynn butted in and he had no choice. It would have been nice if he mentioned Shadow going with him. I would probably get a room with two beds, like mine.

"Let's sit and talk for a bit okay?" I said with a shaky breath. He nodded and walked over to the sofa. He sat down and I sat down in the chair next to the sofa.

"I owe you an explanation for my actions." I began.

"No, you don't." He said in a hurried way.

"I do. I brought you into my life without thinking. You don't deserve this." I said. I took a deep breath and wiped my hands on my leggings nervously. Why am I nervous? This isn't me. I'm usually the one who is calm and collected.

"I had this boyfriend named Kris. He was very sweet and kind. At the time, I had multiple submissives. Then there was Kris, my sub and boyfriend. Apparently Kris wasn't mentally stable. He had this psychotic break. He killed one of my submissives named Morgan. Literally after, he kidnapped me. Ever since I've been mentally fucked up. He did things that I don't wish to speak of. Knowing I'm responsible for Morgan losing his life still haunts me. That was five years ago. That was the last time I had a submissive or a relationship. Then I met you, and you asked me to train you. I was hesitant at first, for obvious reasons. But there's something innocent about you that draws me in. But I don't want to ruin you. If you wish to leave, I'll buy you a place. I'll provide everything you need. You won't ever have to go back on the streets again. I want to help you get back on your feet. But I'm not sure I'm ready for an actual relationship. I'm... Terrified." I finally admitted. I took a deep, shaky breath. Tears were streaming down my face but I didn't care. I felt a hand on my cheek, I looked up to see Shadow inches from my face. He pressed his lips against mine softly.