Forced To Be With Him 24/7

Chapter 33

Harry leaves two minutes till midnight. I tried my best, keeping a smile on my face the whole day and it was the worst thing I have ever did to anybody.

My bag of lies get heavier and heavier every time I look at him. I killed his baby. Our baby.

If it meant to take all of that back, all of the love I have for him, all of the precious moments we had and he changing me for the better, I'd let go just to end the possibility of him getting hurt when he uncovers these. I will break him in a way no one can mend together. I know that. Deep down I know the ending to this story.

I think about packing up, quitting work and ending everything with him but the last time I tried to do that, it blew in my face and I got pregnant. I can't seem to distance myself from him.

I get in the bath and take a long one. My cramps have slightly decreased and the pain killers are really helping me. I feel terrible for what I did and my subconscious makes me want to suffer as well. My mind is twisted lately. My fingers type in Alexandra Hill into google as I read in the tub covered with bubbles and hot water.

Harry Styles makes a change. He now dates barely legal girls.

The tabloids are unreal.

Harry Styles, the former 1D band member was seen out and about with mystery girl Alex Hill, snogging and enjoying the beach at Barbados.

The new Taylor Swift? Alex Hill and Harry Styles were photographed on luxurious Barbados beaches wearing matching rings. Styles did the same with former girlfriend Taylor Swift with paper airplane necklaces. We can say Styles has a blank space left in his heart after all.

Alex Hill, introduced on the Ellen Tv Show is Harry's secretary and current girlfriend, enjoy sun on a yacht in Barbados. Harry's new making out spot seems to be the Caribbean after their pics cuddling with Kendall Jenner.

Teenage heartthrob Harry is again with another girl, taking her all around the globe. We give this a month guys.

I am not satisfied. I open twitter and google myself. Over 500,00 tweets appear.

Who the fuck is Alex? We survived Hendall and Haylor, wtf?

If Harry brings another girl on a yacht, I'm going to sink it.

Harry is gay and she is PR. Simon's games people.

Harry is mine you fucking slut. Fucking secretary go do some paperwork.

Wtf is Alex? Go fuck yourself Harry is mine.

She looks like a rat.

Harry? Really? Man how much did Kendall break your heart that you got this re-bound?

I close it. Thats enough. Tears roll down my cheeks as I realize the stupidity of what I just did. I did it on purpose to make myself feel bad.

I realize the hot water helped me eased my pains so I get out and clean in the shower.

I get out and grab my cherry blossom notebook and write everything I am feeling inside down.

**

I get myself together this Friday. I wear a pencil skirt and a nude and floaty button up and tuck it inside my skirt.

I wear the ring Harry got me on my finger and a golden necklace to go with the rim around our constellations.

There is still snow on the ground so I wear black pantyhose underneath and my black heels. I curl my hair, do my makeup and make my coffee before I go to work. When I get outside to get on the metro, I recognize Roberto's car waiting up front.