Forced To Be With Him 24/7

Chapter 98

"Lets go sit in my car." Harry says as he throws the ice pack away from him. Its already below 32 degrees outside. I hesitate at first but as the adrenaline wears off, the burning sensation of the cold on my feet and body make me agree. We sit inside his car and he opens the A/C so it blasts hot air.

"Are you warm?" He asks me as I hold myself in an effort to bring myself to an acceptable temperature. I hope the baby is not being effected.

"Here." He says as he hands me his jacket. I don't take it, I don't even look at his face.

"Take it Lex. Please." He coos to me. I turn to look at his face to make sure he is not crying. Its such a hopeless voice that I can't turn him down. I wear his jacket and it warms me up considerably.

I don't say anything. He doesn't either. I just watch the snow cover the hood of the car and the windows fog up.

"I'm sorry. For doing that to Jace... and to you." He says as he slurs his words.

"You're drunk." I say bitterly.

"I am. I have been for the past 5 days. Did you know how hard it was to not know where you were? Every time I closed my eyes the only thing I could imagine was us-" He swallows. It looks like he is trying his best not to break down.

"And to know that... You were spending your time with that little worm!" He hits the steering wheel and I notice his knuckles are bleeding.

"Harry!" I yelp as I grab his hands and realise they are bleeding continuously. I open the glove compartment where I keep the tissues and take some out to push onto his skin to stop the blood from gushing out. As I hold his hands in my hand the tears are inevitable. I love him with all my heart and thinking he doesn't feel the same way kills me. I throw that napkin away as I take out another one and press it on the other hand. The ring on his finger only amplifies my misery.

"Lex, please don't cry." He mumbles with such a low voice, its almost inaudible. I look up at him. His eyes are fixated on me. He looks genuinely broken. I want to believe its because what Alex said sounded the wrong way and it hurt me and not because it was true and his grand scheme of plans were interrupted.

"Don't call me that." I say. It has no anger, no despise, only genuine heart break in my voice and I think he catches onto it.

"What did you guys do? For 5 days." He blurts as he grunts at me for pushing the paper too hard. I quickly pull away and open the car door. We separated because he was using me, that was the fight and he is still talking about Jace? It should be the least of his problems.

I step out onto snow again and I'm not looking ahead of me, only focusing on the snow building up on the gravel when suddenly I'm lifted off the ground.

"Get back in the car. You'll freeze the baby and yourself." Its Harry as he drunkly grabs me and sits my ass back in the car. I try to jump out.

"I left because I realised you didn't love me! You were using me! And you are still questioning me about Jace?!" I scream and it sounds like a screech the monsters do in horror movies. I even scare myself.

"Why do you assume what Alex said was true?" He screams back. He sounds so angry, I get spooked. I can see every vein in his forehead and neck as he yells at me.

"Was it fucking not?" I yell back as I get back out of the car. I don't care if the snow makes my toes fall off. I can't stand being so close to him in that fucking car. He looks at me with those puppy eyes and his cologne just makes me dizzy. I don't want to be soft anymore.

"Of course not!" He screeches on top of his lungs. Its so loud I think someone might even call the police.

"Didn't seem like that when you stood there crying, saying fucking nothing! Had time to practise?" I scream back. My throat hurts from the cold already and now I feel like I'm ripping my vocal cords apart.