Forced To Be With Him 24/7

Chapter 91

Alex buys a cappuccino for himself and a juice shake and cheesecake for me as we sit in a booth together.

"What happened? What have you been up to?" He asks once we catch our breathe.

"Not much." I say as I rub my belly and a bitter sweet smile graces my face. Alex notices it and gulps before changing the subject.

"How long do you have left?" He asks.

"2 months." I say as I slowly realize our common ground has vanished. We used to talk about literature and school and relationships and drugs and now, its just me being pregnant.

"Is there a name?" He asks and I nod no.

"We don't know the gender." I admit and he nods.

I tell him what happened at the hospital and he tells me he'll stick by my side until I'm not alone anymore.

"Harry should be home in like an hour anyway." I say as he frowns. I am surprised as to why.

"Its his baby?" He asks and I nod. Who else could it be?

"Lexy, I was there when you guys weren't that great." He says and memories of us fighting all the time when he was in France and me going out with crew to suppress that pain comes flashing back. I guess its not that fair what I did to them because we lost contact the second Harry became the center of attention in my life.

"And you had so my goals. You were going to do your Master's in Brown and you were going to work somewhere until you could start your own business." He says, his eyes deep with sorrow. He is right. I did want to do those things.

"I will do them. Just not right now." I say and he shakes his head no.

"You go to Boston, Harry stays in New York. Sounds familiar? Who keeps the baby? Obviously you can't, you're at Uni. Who is going to breast feed it? Lets say Harry keeps it and you store frozen breast milk. How are you gonna survive without your baby five days a week? How are you two going to survive it?" He asks as my head floods with questions. These are all the fears I had with my first pregnancy and why I got on abortion in the first place. I just hoped for a miracle.

"I- I will-" he cuts me off.

"You're too caught up in making things work with Harry that you gave up on yourself. You were valedictorian, you struggled for so many years to get where you were. You are not going to let it all go because you want to become an A-Lister housewife." He almost spits it in my face. He is right.

"I won't... I need some air." I say as I stand up and the floor under my flips and everything goes black.

"What was the purpose of saying that!" I hear a very familiar voice yell and then I hear someone push the other.

I quickly jolt my eyes open and in front of me is Harry and Alex. Harry thinks I'm asleep as his anger flows out of his limbs and tone. His back is towards me and I can see the tense muscle under his shirt.

"She is pregnant and vulnerable! Why would you push her like that!" Harry screams at Alex as he pushes him away.

"Thats all she is! She is just pregnant! You ended her life!" Alex yells back at him as I hear Harry laugh. Its such an evil laugh I feel scared.

"She can study wherever whenever she wants. I'll donate a new library. Its not a problem." He huffs. He wants me to get in with a bribe? Harry's girlfriend scores new internship at Princeton.
I can't even refer to myself at Alex anymore, is being Harry's girlfriend the thing that defines me the most?

"She won't take it! You're ending her  life by doing stupid shit like that. You need her to achieve stuff herself. Not by you. I know her. That will be the end of her Harry. If you keep this up, it'll kill her-" Alex is screaming when Harry interrupts him. I try to make a sound but I'm mute. They are too angry to notice me waking up.

"How do you know her? We have been together for over a year now. She spent what, three months with you? Thats nothing." He spits as he walks toward Alex, almost pushing him out of the room.

"Do you remember the night we met?" Alex is furious as he steps into the room. They are almost the same height and they are both extremely angry.

"You had to fly in from France because she had fallen asleep next to me on the bed and wasn't answering your calls. I remember how angry you were then and how angry you are now. The resemblance is remarkable. You don't care about her education or her own personal goals-"

"Of course I do!"

"Not as much as you are scared of loosing her. She would read your texts to me, tell me all about the fights. I knew it then but never told her. You never wanted a baby. You just wanted to secure her to you. She was younger, smarter, had no fame, she was free. Unlike you." He says and I think if that could be true. It wouldn't be. He would have proposed if that was the case.

"But you couldn't ask her to marry you because you're not sure if you want to keep her around forever. She is pregnant, she lives with you, the baby is due really soon, still there is no ring..."Alex deciphers Harry. I still think its only speculation when Harry's silence gives him away. Dear god.

"You only want to keep her now. You saw Louis depart ways with Brianna. Its not that hard you thought. So you had a baby with her. She became dependent on you. You bonded her to you in a way she thinks its forever but for you its a free ride until you get sick and want to leave. You're disgusting." Alex says as he walks over him. Harry's shoulder slouch.

Tears run down my cheeks as I realize what Alex said is true. He has always been the best at reading people.

"Will you tell her?" Harry asks as Alex's eyes fixate on the floor. I hold my breathe.

"Please don't tell her. I love her." Harry says as his frame shakes. Is he crying?

"I won't." Alex says as Harry sighs.

"She has been awake since the beginning." Alex says as another set of tears roll down my cheeks and Harry turns around, locking eyes with me.

His eyes look bloodshot, in tears, matching mine.

This is the first time I see Harry cry.