Where Did I go Wrong?

Chapter 17 - Continuation

August took it upon himself to stay downstairs to watch the football game, without even checking in on me which just pissed me off even more. I honestly don't know what it is, but I just feel so angry with him today.

I sighed as I laid back on the bed, rubbing my growing stomach. It was getting really big, making my pregnancy obvious.
Somehow, my inner gut was leaning in favor of August being the father of the baby. I don't even know where Trey is and now when I think about it, I'm pretty sure that Trey and I used protection on that night. Another reason for me to think August's the daddy.

I leaned towards the bedside table, reaching out to my phone.
I had a few missed calls; two from Becky, one from India and another one from my mom.
I made a mental note to call my mom back as I checked my messages.
I had one from India,

Hey bestie, hmu ASAP!

And I had two other messages from Emmy,

Why is your ratchet self ain't calling in or nun? Hmu

Caaaalll mehhh!!!

I smiled at his messages, I really missed those times when Em, India and I went out partying like no tomorrow. Em and I were quite close before he left to take care of his grandma, there was a small argument between us about something stupid; I met Trey and lost contact with him.
Coming to think about it, Trey seems to be the reason as to why I no longer have any guy friends; he always found a way to drive them away, jealousy probably being the reason for his actions.

I closed my messages, going to my contacts and pressing on my mom's name.
The phone rang and she picked up on the third ring.

"Hey mama."

"Damn, what did I do to deserve such a surprise of a call from the almighty Alyssa?" She joked, obviously referring to the fact that I haven't been calling her lately.

"I'm sorry I haven't called, I've just been really busy with sorting out some things with the company and it's really tiring. I promise that I'll call you more often though."

"Alright, so why is you calling? Cus I know you ain't call me just to talk." Yep, my mama knows me all too well.

"Um, yeah. I wanted to know if you and dad can come over tomorrow for dinner after church."

"Church? The hell you all religious for now? You ain't going to no church!" She exclaimed, sounding quite annoyed.

"Ma, I'm gonna go, no matter what. It's my decision."

"That's fine but I swear, if I find out that you went to some church, don't bother waiting for me to come over, cus I ain't."
And just like that, she ended the call.

I don't know what her problem is. If I want to turn to a new leaf in my life and I decide to go to church, it's my choice! What is her damn problem with me going?

POV Nicki Minaj

I don't understand why this girl would want to go to a place such as church.
She doesn't know what it's gonna do to her and before you know it, she'll quit her modelling job and become celibate because 'God' spoke to her.

I honestly don't believe in that stuff, it ain't real, probably will never be.
Hell, I'd be more comfortable if she said she was going to the club to party even though she's pregnant.

This controversy of a love triangle between her, August and Trey isn't helping her image. What would happen if the media found out about her becoming a Christian?!

She's gonna learn and see that I'm trying to help her by keeping her away from church.

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POV August

I managed to get on talking terms with Lyssa and with a bit of food, I was able to persuade her to lie in bed with me. These mood swings of hers are really killing me fr.

I could tell she was in deep thought by the way she was staring into space, not focusing on the movie that was on the TV.

"What's wrong ma?"

"Huh?" She said, turning to me.

"What's going on in that big head of yours?" I joked, earning a glare from her.

"Shut up Aug, I don't have a big head." She said, hitting my arm. Damn, she's heavy handed.

"I'm sorry ma, your head is a perfect size. Anyway, what are you thinking about?"

"I...um-" For a second, I thought she was considering lying to me about whatever she was thinking about.

She sighed, starting again;

"Aug, I mean no harm by asking this but how were you able to afford the baby's stuff as well as the restaurant? As long as I've known you, you haven't had an actually stable job that could afford those things" She asked, catching me completely off guard.

I needed to lie to her, but nothing was coming to mind. I wanted to tell her the truth, but the fear of losing her overpowered that feeling of wanting to speak the truth.

Finally, after getting myself together, I turned to her, not knowing what to expect.

"Before I tell you anything, I need ya to know that I love you with all my heart. I ain't never felt like this for no one. You're amazing and I love you. Remember that.
Ion know how to start this so imma just be straight forward. I'm still in the game, sellin drugs. That's how I've been making my money.

I'm sorry for puttin you in so much danger, especially since you carrying my seed. I'm really trying to sort a few things out and I promi-"

She cut me off with a kiss, making me confused.
Once we pulled away, she looked me in the eyes, starting to speak.

"It's okay." The hell is she playin at? I thought she was gonna blow but instead she just stayed calm, looking deeper into my eyes as if she was looking for something.

"Lyssa you ain't gotta stay with me, I'm livin a dangerous life and I ain't wanna bring you into all that."
I don't know what it is bout this woman but damn, she had a grip on me. Almost had me crying like girl and all.

"Aug I said it was fine okay. As you said, it's ride or die right? And I ain't ready to die no time soon so I guess I'm gonna have to ride with your big headed self."

Am I blessed or what? If it had been some other woman, I'd probably be on the streets right now, with my suitcases to go with me.

"I love you."

"I love you too."