I don't know how, but I ended up in my room.
For some seconds I had no idea what happened to me, but then I remembered and jumped up from my bed...
- Father!!
- Kösem... - I hear Azura's painful voice - He's dead...
And with that I finally realized what was going on.
Safiye killed my father.
I did what she told me to do and she killed him anyway...
For fun.
- Safiye...
That was all I hissed before I stormed out of my room, not even explaining anything to poor Azura, or Gölge, who was also in my room at the time.
I headed right for Safiye.
I totally lost my mind in anger and grief.
On the corridor I also grabbed a torch and just kicked her door in.
I didn't care anymore.
I wanted to kill her so badly.
But then again... I wasn't thinking clearly at the very moment.
- Safiye!!! - I shouted, causing everyone to jump up, including Safiye herself too.
- You murdered! - I hissed while I was swinging the torch around me, to make sure no servants can grab me, or anything - You killed him! I did what you wanted, but you killed him! Why?!
- That's what you get for standing up against me, Kösem - she replied calmly.
Her face might have been calm, but her eyes said she was terrified of what I'm going to do once when she finishes talking.
- I'm gonna kill you!!
But then...
- Enough, Angeles! You won't kill her!
This voice...
I know this voice.
I turned around to see Rose, a woman from the same village I came from.
She has been like a second mother to me.
- Rose...
- Give me the torch - she said as she reached out for it, but I quickly pulled it away.
- Are you serving her? - I muttered, feeling betrayed by the only person I expected the less to be betrayed by - Are you serving a murderer?!
- I'm working for her yes... But she isn't...
- Don't tell me she isn't!! She killed my father!!! - I shouted at her.
Right now my anger was bigger than anything before.
She was speaking to me after that, but I just couldn't pay attention.
I felt so lost.
So alone.
And betrayed.
I realized I'm unable to kill Safiye because if I do Herman will be mad...
But...
- You took the most important person away from me - I said after throwing the torch away and walked closer to Safiye - But I promise... You soon will know... How does it really feel... To lose someone precious to you...
She looked at me in silent.
- I'll finish you off.
This made her stand up.
- You will die in misery.
My anger.
My determination to make her life miserable.
Everything added together in this moment, in front of her and all the servants of hers.
- Fear me now.
