Dervish.
Dervish is the solution of my problem.
It's easy to get him to help me since he also has problems he needs help with and it's not just Fahriye herself.
Hmm...
Am I turning evil?
Maybe.
But in this palace I have to.
It's not just myself and Herman... That I need to protect.
Not anymore.
My baby is here too.
I need to make sure he grows up in a safe palace, without anyone ever threatening his life.
All I do is what a mother would do.
Which is everything.
Just to know my child in a face place.
----- TIME SKIP -----
Katerina and Mahfiruze kept on making my life difficult, but it didn't seem that annoying to me anymore.
It's interesting.
Maybe because I knew I'm gonna have my son soon which means they'll have no more chance to tease me too much.
But anyway...
- Kösem! - I hear Mehmed shouting my name from the other side of the corridor.
- Yes?
- Dervish is waiting for you at the balcony.
- Alright - I nodded.
It's time, huh?
I went to the balcony, where he was already standing there, waiting for me.
- Kösem Hatun - he nodded towards me.
- Dervish Pasha...
He took a letter out, but before I could take it he pulled it away.
- Will Fahriye Sultan get hurt? - he asked.
- I don't know - I shrugged - It's only up to her dear mother... Or the Sultan.
He didn't say a word.
- Or do you want to die instead of her? - I continued - I really don't want you to die, Dervish.
- Why would you care about me?
- Handan Sultan cares about you.
That's all I had to say to him to make him hand me the letter.
- Her own handwritten letter, with her confession - he said as he handed it to me.
And that's all that happened.
I walked away while he stayed there.
----- TIME SKIP -----
Herman's POV:
Usual business had to be done, but I didn't miss my opportunity to spend some time with Mustafa as I had no chance to do that for a long time now.
While we were together he suddenly said something that made me freeze...
- Will you still care about me when Kösem's son's gonna be born? - he asked.
What?
Her son?
- What are you talking about? - I asked him.
- Kösem is pregnant!
I looked at Mehmed, who was standing behind me, but before I could even ask anything he smiled and nodded...
- It is true - he said - Kösem Hatun is pregnant.
My heart dropped.
She's pregnant.
But why didn't she tell me?
Did she want to tell me this when I snapped at her?
I'm not sure, but I'm gonna go and see her now as soon as I can.
