"She was executed by the order of Safiye Sultan..."
No...
No, this can't be true...
I need air...
I went out to the balcony to breath...
But I barely could...
- No... No, no, NO! - I panted - No, she can't be dead! No!
The only reason I'm still alive...
She can't be DEAD!
- I'm sorry... My Sultan... - Zülfikar spoke behind me.
- NO!! - I shouted as I ran out, down towards the room, where I saw some of the bodies being taken to to see if she's there.
But as I arrived and began to look around I couldn't find her.
Cover after cover I lifted them up, but nothing.
She wasn't there.
Then I lifted one up which had Mahfiruze's lifeless body under it.
- Mahfiruze... - I sighed painfully as I gave her one last kiss on the head before I covered her again.
She didn't deserve to die like this.
But I still can't find Angie anywhere!!
I continued throwing off one cover after another, but she isn't here.
After a while Zülfikar stopped me and that's when I broke down completely...
- My Sultan... My Sultan, enough! - he said as he grabbed me by the arm to stop me - Enough...
At this point I just started crying.
I didn't care who sees it.
I didn't care who hears it.
I just started crying the way I might have never ever cried before in my entire life.
And Zülfikar just stood there, holding me down silently.
Somehow I'm glad he was there and I wasn't alone at this moment.
- I'm sorry... - he mumbled.
- What am I gonna do without her, Zülfikar?! What am I gonna do?! - I continued crying.
- You have to stay strong! Remember... The Sehzades are waiting for you!
I panted heavily.
I didn't know what to do, or in fact how to get started at the first place.
I felt so weak...
Weak and useless...
"Only two things can bring tears into a man's eyes... Happiness... Or death..."
Right?
That's what Suleyman used to say.
But how could he know... When at the time he didn't lose his precious Hürrem Sultan while I...
- My Lord... - Zülfikar spoke up again.
- Okay... - I sighed deeply as I weakly stood up - Let's go to the village... There you have to show me where they are...
I had to get going.
I couldn't just stand there and complain.
After all... My sons are alive and so is my mother...
And they need me the most right now...
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On our way to the house Mehmed Giray joined us since he was the one taking them there and he knew exactly where the building is.
- Right there, My Lord! - he told me - Where the girl ran into!
There was indeed a girl in the middle of the street just a moment ago, but she ran into the house, looking quite happy.
I wasn't really paying attention to what was happening while I got off my horse, but once when I turned to go in the house I completely froze...
- What....?!
