I Didn't Give a Shit.. Until I Met Him

I Didn't Give a Shit.. Until I Met Him (11)

"Fuck english," I said. Derek has been trying to go over McBeth with me, and I just don't get it, and I sort of don't care. I don't care about Shakespeare and his stupid way of writing. He sighed. I still don't know the reason why he even agreed to tutor me, like did he think it was going to be an easy task? If he did then he is not smart enough to tutor me.

"Alex, just listen and you'll get it"

"No. This is stuff is shit, and is no way going to help me in my life. I quit!" I announced.

"You aren't getting paid to learn." Derek chuckled.

"Well, I'm done with school"

"Alex, just try to one more time." I could see he was getting more annoyed. After a while of trying I finally managed to get the stupid answer correct.

"See Alex? You just have to try" He flashed his adorable smile.

"Shut up, how many more questions?" I asked.

"Twenty-five"

"You're shitting me?"

"No"

I groaned. Remind me why the fuck am I still in school? I know I promised my mom, but do I have to stay in this shithole?

Yes, Alex you do.

"You'll be done in no time," Derek said assuringly.

After one whole hour, I only did six questions. Clearly I wouldn't be done in no time. Derek is about to pull out his hair. I just chuckled everytime he sighed, which was a lot. It was his fault to agree on tutoring me.

"Okay Derek, this is no use"

"Just keep on trying"

"Whatever, I'll do it another day or something"

"Okay" He sighed again. I stuffed all my books in my book and left the room. I was making my way upstairs and out of the houses, that I realized, I was nice to him. I'm honestly starting to wonder what the fuck happened to me. I'm never nice. This really needs to stop. It would be so much easier if he was a douche. Why did he have to be so nice? It still doesn't matter, I have to stay away from him. He is dangerous, it's just about time he leaves me and by that time I might be attached to him. I should never be attached to anyone. I don't have feelings, and I need to stay that way.

***

"Ms.James, your attitude is concerning me," my english teacher said in the middle of class. I've been here for a month or so, and my attitude is still 'concerning' her? Teacher's like these piss me off.

"Your fucking teaching is concerning me," I retorted. Derek burst out laughing. I have to admit, I was surpressing a laugh, the teachers face was priceless.

"Fynn, James, after school detention"

I just rolled my eyes. These teachers still think that I'm going to the stupid detentions they give me. I've finally decided that, I'm going to stay away from Derek, as hard as it's going to be. I don't know how but i've become a little attached to him, and that's not good. He's just going to leave me, and I'm not going to go down that road again. I need to distance myself from everyone around me. I've gone through way too much shit in my life, I don't want anymore. This way me and Derek can go on with our lives regularly without each other. That means I'm going to be alone again. Eventually Derek's going to leave me making me alone again. In the end i'm going to be alone, but if I distance myself from Derek, I won't feel betrayal.

***

"Alex, are you going to detention?" Derek asked. He looked so good with his wet hair, a water droplet would occasionally fall from his hair. I looked away. I'm already doing a bad job at distancing myself away from him.