I Didn't Give a Shit.. Until I Met Him

I Didn't Give a Shit.. Until I Met Him (9)

Derek:

I'm a fucking idiot. Why the hell would I do that? I mean I finally managed to get Alex James to consider coming to the dance with me, and then I blow it by kissing her. I can never get her off my mind, I don't know what it is about her, but I just can't stop thinking about her. Most guys here are terrified of her, I mean I was too, but I grew some balls and talked to her, after all I'm not a pussy, though I have established I'm a idiot. I think my favourite thing about her is her strength. She has been through a shit load and still makes it look like she's okay. I honestly wouldn't know what I would do if I was in her position, it will be too hard, I will probably just commit suicide. Has Alex ever thought about that?

I can't forget the kiss, though it was only a peck on the lips, I felt something and I hope she did too. Why didn't I feel like this with any girl?

Is that how you even ask a girl to a dance? And I didn't even give her the rose, should I have? Is that how guys that want to get a girl do it? I never really had to work hard to get a girl, they just always wanted me. But Alex doesn't, she doesn't want me, she doesn't want no one, but I will change that.

"Derek, you wanna go to the dance with me?" Suzy asked.

"Sorry Suzy, I'm busy that night" I lied. I don't even know what I'm doing that night, but if I'm not going with Alex then I'm not going with no one. Wait... Maybe taking Suzy will make Alex jealous and she'll realize she likes me, if she even does like me. She has to. But these things never work out, Alex will find out some way or another, so it's better to keep my mouth shut. I already did too many stupid things to Alex, don't want to do another one.

"That's too bad, I would have made it fun" She winked.

"Sorry" I shrugged and walked off. These girls really can be shameless.

I just remember that I'm supposed to tutor Alex today, there's no way I'm going back to her. She's probably making ideas of how to kill me, and I can't die yet. But if I tutor her then we can have a chance to talk. I looked back and noticed her car was in the drive way. Should I go back? Derek, you're not a fucking pussy.

I jogged to her car. She saw me and walked out,

"What are you still doing here Derek?" Alex asked.

"What are you still doing here?" I asked back.

"Fuckin' car ran out of gas" She said angerly. I chuckled.

"You know you're supposed to refill every once and a while, right?"

"Do you think I'm an idiot? Of course I know that" she growled.

"Well I can give you a ride" I shrugged as if it was no big deal.

"Sure.. whatever" She got her keys and walked with me to my car. I opened the door for her, she muttered a thanks, at least I think she did. I took a breathe and walked to my side, I opened the door and got in. Should I take her to my house for tutoring?

"Alex.. do you want to come to my house for tutoring?" I asked hopeful. I wanted her to come.

"Not today, tomorrow"

"Okay" I started the engine and made her way to her house. I would occasionly I would ask for directions but I knew most of the way, I've came here by myself before. When I pulled up at her house, she got out of the car right away, not even sparing a 'thanks, bye' , but I expect that from Alex. I followed her to her front porch.

"What?" She asked.

"Can I come inside?"

"Why?"