Speechless (Muke)

DAY 23:

Words For Mikey: Days after = 1

The doctor says you still don't want to see anyone. Do you know how much that hurts me? This is my last letter to you baby, the doctor's waiting for me to finish it so she can bring them all to you. I'm sorry if they make you sad or angry, but if they make you happy then I take back my apology. Go to sleep kitten, we'll all be here when you wake up.

I love you,

Luke

Luke hadn't moved yet. He had moved a chair in front of Michael's door and was sitting stiff as a board with Robert clutched tightly in his hands. He had been like this since Michael screamed at him to get out and he had been attacked by the others questions.

"What's going on, Luke?"

"Was that Michael screaming?"

"Is he awake?"

"Why are you crying?"

"Are you alright?"

"Is Michael okay?"

"Why was he screaming?"

"That was him screaming right?"

The questions had gone completely unanswered until Luke screamed back at them.

"Shut up! Shut up, shut up, shut up! I don't know! I don't fucking know anything! Why do you always think I have the God damn answers?! I don't know if he's okay! I don't know if it was him screaming or his fucking mental illness! All I fucking know is that's not my Michael in there and I want him back NOW!"

Luke didn't even feel guilty for yelling at them as he usually did. He didn't care that Michael and the entire floor heard him screaming. He didn't care that everyone thought he was crazy. But he thinks that his next words took it a little too far.

"Maybe Michael had it right all along! What the fuck is the point in living?!"

Wounded faces, tortured eyes, broken hearts and shaky sobs haunted Luke as he sat statue like in his chair.

"Don't say that," Ashton had spat back. "I get that you were going to do it when we had decided to let him go. I get that you're hurting Luke. We all do. But Michael is awake now and you promised you would always be here to protect him and love him and keep him safe. Don't break your promise,"

Calum had to bite down on his trembling lip to stop from crying and Tatiana was holding a shaking Liz in her small arms. Luke's brothers stood still as if frozen and watch their little brother with wide eyes. How come they didn't see it?

"Fuck off. He doesn't want my promises," Luke hissed.

"Michael wants everything you'll give him," Ashton insisted.

"Then why'd he try to give it all away?"

Luke felt exceptionally numb now. He hadn't moved eaten or slept and if he was going to be honest (he wasn't) the room hadn't stopped spinning for a while now, he might puke soon.

"Luke Hemmings?"

Luke jumped up from the chair to stand in front of the nurse who had just left Michael's room. "Yes?"

"Michael won't sleep and the record says you're his boyfriend. Listen, I know he doesn't want to see anyone, but we need him to sleep and he won't and by the looks of it neither will you,"

Luke was aware that he was falling and he stumbled a few steps to the side to catch himself. "W-what makes you think he'll sleep for...me?" Luke yawned twice as he spoke.