I'm His Girl

Forty-Three

iamjiyeon31: Yay! Sobrang busy kaya ngayon lang nakapag-update. Sobrang thank you sa mga naglalagay nang IHG sa RL nila, sa mga nag-fofollow. :") Pasensya po. I-don't-tolerate-the-follow -and-follow back-rule. Kung sino yung gutso ko i-follow. Yun lang e-fofollow ko. Sareeeeeeh po. Happy 5k reads IHG!! *sabog ang BATS* LOL. Cge. May lakad pa ako. Ewan ko sa update na ito. Sobrang writers block + trip trip lang ito. 

P.S @Bomeenah! Sis, paramdam ka naman minsan sa akin uy :< 

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Chapter Forty-three

*Jan Francis Villareal’s POV*

I blankly look at them and not giving them any emotions. Ano naman kasi dapat ipapakita ko? Tsk. Masyado na akong madaming nailabas ngayong araw na’to.

Tsk. Pakshit. Di ko inasahan na ganun yung magiging reaksyon ko sa pag-aamin ko sa nakaraan ko. Damn! I shouldn’t cried! I am a man. Fvck. Pero di ko pa din napigilan.

I can’t control my emotions everytime I remembers what happened before.

It was a peaceful night and I remember how happy I am to knew that we’ll celebrate the birthday of my sister in our vacation house. Tsk. Then it happened! My father was killed because of a holdapping incident in a seven eleven store because he tried to save the people inside that store.

Naalala ko kung paano yung takot sa mukha ng kapatid at ng mama ko. Kung gaano ako katakot nang marinig ko ang tunog ng baril. Fvckin gunshot. Fvckin criminal who killed my father. Specially fvck my mother. Really, I hate her.

Di ko mapigilan di maikuyom ang mga palad ko sa tuwing naalala ko siya. Tsk.

He left me alone in our vacation house after the burial of my father. The worst was she even brought my sister along with her. I was 10 years old that time! Fvck her for leaving me! I needed her that time! My father died and my mother and sister left me without a word! Fvck!

I did not cried when they left me. Why do I need to let them know what I felt that time when I knew that I can even show them another emotions. An emotions which they would think that I don’t care. Fvck! I am a man! Why should I care? Fvckin gay. -_- Tsk.

Hindi madali aminin ang lahat ng nangyari sa akin pero inamin ko pa din sa amazonang yun. Shit. The nerve of that woman to punched me again.

Ginising niya ulit ako sa katotohanan. Nakaraan. Past. Dati. Lahat nang past tense naalala ko dahil sa kanya.

Soleen.

Fvck for letting me feel this way.

Di ko napigilan at yinakap ko na siya kanina, Shit. Sarap sa feeling. Ang bakla. Tang-ina.

Tsk -___-

Gusto ko makilala niya pa ako nang mabuti. Gusto ko matanggap niya kung ano ako.

I managed to tell her my past but I can’t tell her what I am now.

Kung ano ang ginagawa namin ng BATS.

“Bunso!”

“Putakte dude!”

Tiningnan ko lang si Kyrk na nagulat sa pagsigaw ni Ken. Tsk. Stupid. -_-

“Why did Tj called us?” tanong ko.

Kanina pa kami dito sa field. Umalis ako agad pagkatapos ko maihatid si Soleen. I wanted to go inside in their house but TJ called all of us.

“Yun din ang tanong ko bunso. Di ko din alam. Di ko nga alam kung saan yun eh. Di pa din dumadating.” Dylan