Oh Love...

Chapter 13: It's All My Fault

Carrie's POV

I got out of my car and walked into Brad's house. I could see Brad get up off the couch to come greet me when I ran into his arms and immediately began to cry.

Brad: Aw Carrie..what's wrong? I'm taking it didn't go well?

Carrie: Well, I don't know. I yelled at her, Brad. I went off on my best friend....I feel so terrible but I felt like it was the only thing I could do..

Brad: Calm down, Carrie, it's okay...

He rubbed his hands against my back trying to soothe me. I think it was working...

Brad: Please stop crying, Carrie. I don't want to see you cry, you're gonna make me cry!

Carrie: I'm sorry, I'm sorry!

I wiped away the tears as we were still hugging. We pulled away and Brad grabbed my hands.

Brad: Everything will be fine Carrie. It's all over now. Let's put this whole thing behind us and pretend like it never happened. I'm sure in a few weeks we'll forget all about it. We won't need to worry about it happening ever again.

Carrie: You're right...thanks...

We kissed and I walked to the bathroom to wash the smeared makeup off my face. I came back out, it was real quiet and Brad was still on the couch sitting silently.

Carrie: I'm so hungry...wanna grab a bite to eat?

Brad: Sure. just give me a few minutes to get dressed.

Brad and I both got dressed and left to go to lunch. I hadn't eaten breakfast so I was starving. We decided to go to this cute little cafe in town which was really nice. A few people there actually recognized us and asked for an autograph and a picture. They were so excited that it was both of us, apparently to them that's way more awesome than just one of us! I loved to take pictures and give autographs, Brad and I could never say no, we loved it! When we finished eating we left and went back to Brad's house.

Brad: Well, lunch was pretty yummy!

Carrie: Yeah, it was. We'll definitely have to go back to that place sometime soon, the food was great.

Brad: Definitely! And meeting those fans were awesome. I love it when fans come up to us on the streets!

Carrie: Yeah, me too!!

After all this I'm starting to forget about everything with Miranda. I'm not as bitter as I was earlier today. A part of me misses her though....I didn't see her every day but at least I had her to go to when I needed someone to hang out with or talk to. Now I didn't have that...I had no other friends. I walked over to sit on the couch and right as I sat down my phone began to ring. It was Miranda's parents. What if Miranda told them about everything? Wait, why was I expecting her not to? They're her parents, of course she's gonna tell them. I answered the phone.

Carrie: Hello?

Mrs. Lambert: Carrie...

I could hear her crying uncontrollably, I couldn't understand what she was saying.

Carrie: Mrs. Lambert is everything okay?! What's wrong?!

Mrs. Lambert: Miranda..

Carrie: Yes, what about her? Come on, tell me, you're worrying me right now. Please tell me what's going on.

Mrs. Lambert: She-she-she-she.....

She kept stuttering and couldn't get the sentence out. I began to panic so I yelled into the phone.

Carrie: Mrs. Lambert tell me what's wrong, now!! What is going on?!?!

Mrs. Lambert: Miranda....MIRANDA IS DEAD

I froze.

Carrie: Don't be crazy, just tell me what's really wrong!

Mrs. Lambert: I'm telling you right now, Carrie. MIRANDA IS DEAD!

My phone fell out of my hand and hit the floor. I could feel my heart completely stop.

Brad ran over to me.

Brad: Carrie!! What's the matter? ARE YOU OKAY?!?!?

He was shaking me and trying to get a response but I couldn't open my mouth. Suddenly I jumped onto him and wrapped my arms around his neck. I EXPLODED into tears.

Carrie: Miranda is dead, Brad!!!

Brad: WHAAAT!! WHAT DO YOU MEAN DEAD?!

Carrie: Her mom JUST called me and told her they found her dead. She died earlier today!

I couldn't stop crying. I could feel my shirt get wet as tears poured down Brad's face.

Carrie: I may not have wanted to be friends anymore but I definitely didn't want her to be gone for good. I don't want this. THIS IS ALL MY FAULT!!

Brad: Now Carrie, you don't know that!! You don't know how she died. It could've been anything.

Carrie: We need to go to her house RIGHT now!

We left the house and we couldn't stop sobbing. This is all my fault, I know it. I was way too hard on her about the whole thing. She's right, she was just drunk, it was an accident! But I had to go and make her feel guilty and miserable and now she's dead. SHE'S DEAD. Everything around me suddenly stopped and nothing mattered to me anymore.