diary of me.

Feburary 6th

~secrets p.o.v~
i did it once again today I cut one then again and then again and again, I decided to stop When my arms where covered in blood and it was clotting I promise everyone that I wouldnt do it again but I did and I don't know why but I couldn't handle the pain of the razor cutting through my skin anymore but it didn't change the fact that he didn't care and it hurt he left me for good is all I could I could even think of but why was this the thing I choose to do and get hurt a lot more I showed him still he didn't care his only reply was I know that hurts you well duh it did is all I can think in my head

I can't forgive my self I made him leave basiclly I got him mad at me enough to leave and I'm the one crying and shit everyone was telling me to leave him be but I couldn't he's my bestfriend even if he left me I still cared I thought about him wlot I was in love with him in fact but it all changed when I went from loving him to being pissed at him. Every Time someone says his name I get upset and feel like crying why can't I just be happy like normal kids.

{secret xo}

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