diary of me.

Feburary 27th 12:04

~secret p.o.v~
It seriously hasn't even been that long since he left my life it's only been about three hours and I already regret it. Why did I have to tell him to leave its so difficult to be mad at him when you really want him into your life.

I miss him calling me those lovey named like...
Baby girl
Princess
Babe
Baby
Even shawty and I hated that one the most
I miss everything one of them. I know what he goes through and it hurts to think that I left him, I can't even believe it. I'm hurting a lot and he doesn't care he's already building up the walls again I feel left out like I'd just been kicked in the ass and booted out.

Even if I didn't know how I felt about him or anything at this point in time I still cared about him a lot, more than anyone will ever understand he's my best friend even if we didn't talk I still considered him as my best friend, even if he didn't consider me his. He always in my thoughts flooding them and I don't know how to escape them. But I love them I love the good one the bad memories make me wanna girl up into a ball and just sit there and cry and cry for hours on end.

I needed him in my life again even if he wasn't that close I needed him to talk to me and tell me what's going on and to see if he was ok I needed him to tell me when he's upset. I know when he's not ok only because he doesn't act like himself everyone else may think he's fine when he's not and I know he's when he's not ok.

Even if he's in my life I'm still hurting but I'd rather have him than not have him. What am I feeling for this boy I'm so confused about everything right now. Sorry for ranting

-yours sincerely secret xo

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