diary of me.

April 28th 11:15 pm

~Kierstens p.o.v~

We all have that one person we write a book for... So here my book

I can't sleep soooo.... I don't think you really understand how much I like you like honestly your the reason I get up everyday cause I know you'll be there when I need someone to annoy or a shoulder to cry on. I love when your walking after lunch and I see you and just hang on you its my favorite part of the day when I see you... Who am I kidding any time I see you is my favorite part of the day. I love how when we're walking down the hall way and talking the way you face lights up and you start to blush... Or the way you smile whenever I'm with you...You probably think that I don't notice the little things like that but I do. Your an understanding person and your caring. Like honestly I'm always kinda nervous that any girl could take my place but I push my insecurities behind me and forget it causes you chose me not them. It's all the little things you do that make me crazy about you. From your smile to the way you understand when I need you most. I can't even thank you enough for being there when I need you most. I'm a pain I know but I'm so in love with you at times it hurt me mentally I get upset just by a girl being by you it hurts like I can't be that girl next to you, I guess I'm just afraid to lose you even if you say you won't leave. Your the most important person in my life and you know more than my so called "bestfriends" do I tell you everything even if I'm afraid or to scared to tell you I still do it cause you deserve to know what it is and so you can trust me and know I'll always be honest with you. I'd give you the world if I could but I can't sadly all I can give you is my love support and care and I hope that's enough  to make you happy. I know I won't be the best girl for you but all I can do is be the best girl I can be for you at this point in time and this year and hopeful many more to come. I wanna be that couple were everyone's like "GOALS😭❤️" or saying how cute we are together I know it sounds really cliché to say and typical for a white girl😂. I don't know what i want to be in my life yet or who I want to stay in my life cause after high school or college we all go our separate ways but I don't wanna forget you like ever I want you to stay in my life. I love you so very much!😘  I'm not an easy person to be with.i know that. I probably won't even try to make it easy for you. I'll be really difficult times. It may seem like, at times, I don't want you and don't like you. But I do. I'll be a challenge, because I'm not the type of person people walk over a lot. I'm not the person who will send sweet messages all of the damn time. When I say something I mean it. If people are assholes to me I'll throw them out of my life. I'm annoying I'm hilarious and I'm the worlds biggest jerk. I'll make you scream and want to punch walls; I'll ruin your day and then save it at the very last minute. I'll drive you crazy and sometimes you'll hate my guts. But Even though all that's gunna happen and I swear it will, I have an amazing side to me. I do. I have heart. I'll always be there when you need me. Even if my life is in impossible knotted. I'll try and untangle it by listening and loving? I won't stop caring for you, not even if you push me away. Your different from everyone else and I like that. It's refreshing to find someone different in world because way too many people are the same.