Just a Dream

Chapter 14: I want you in my life

So Peeta and I went to sleep about 20 minutes ago. For some reason I only slept for 15 minutes. I woke up with voices saying " You're a mutt, You should die, You destroyed people's life's . I know this is true so I let a tear fall out. I climb out of Peeta's embrace and go into the bathroom connected to my room. I find a razor and decide I'm going to cut myself. I just say a few things if I do die from cutting myself.

Peeta's POV:

I wake up 25 minutes after Katniss and I went to sleep. Katniss isn't here. Where is she? She is still weak she could hurt herself. I get up and I hear crying from the bathroom.It is Katniss crying. Why is she crying? I burst through the door to see her standing there. She has a razor in one hand and her other arm spells out the word MUTT. She's cutting herself. Blood is dripping from the word on her arm.

I walk up to her and take the razor out of her hand and say," KATNISS WHAT ARE YOU DOING! YOU CAN KILL YOURSELF DOING THAT!"

"That is the whole point Peeta!" She tells me tears spilling out of her eyes.

I hold her arms and say,"Why do you want to die! You haven't eaten, had anything to drink,and slept in a week. Have you been cutting yourself also?"

She shakes her head no. Then starts to cry harder. I pull her into a hug." Why didn't you wake me up?"

"I didn't want you to worry about me. I'm a mutt. You said so yourself when you saw who I really am. A monster." She tells me. We break and she starts to shake. It looks like she is going to collapse any minute. I pick her up and put her on the bed.

"I didn't mean that. You are not a mutt. You are a wonderful person and I would be lost if I didn't have you." I tell her and she smiles. I look at her arm and blood is coming out quicker. I go into the bathroom and get a warm washcloth and the first aid kit. I come back and take Katniss's arm. I put the washcloth on her arm. She winces at the pain.

"Sorry. Try to relax ok?" I say and she nods. I finish up by putting healing cream and a bandage on her arm. She curls back up next to me and goes to sleep. The rest of the night was peaceful.

Katniss's POV:

I wake up in Peeta's embrace. He is still sleeping so I stay were I'm at. I try to move the arm I cut last night, but it is numb and it really hurts so I keep it were it is at. Peeta starts to stir, so he must be waking up. His eyes flutter open and he looks at me.

"Good morning beautiful," he says.

"Good morning," I say. I move slightly, but it is difficult with my arm still in the condition that it is in. I bite my lip when I move using that arm. I give up and stay were I'm at. Then the home phone rings. I'm about to get up and get it when Peeta tells me to stay and that he will get it. Who could be calling me this early in the morning?

"Who was that?" I ask Peeta when he walks back into the bedroom.

"We have to meet someone at the bakery today." The bakery has been open for a few months now and I have gone a few times with Peeta. I nod when he says this, because it looks like he doesn't want to tell me who we are meeting with." Do you want breakfast?" Again I shake my head. For the first time in a week I'm hungry. Peeta helps me down the stairs, because I'm still shaking. Probably by tomorrow I will be fine. I sit at the island in the kitchen while Peeta goes to cook.

"What would you like to eat?" He ask.

"I don't know. Surprise me," I tell him.

"How about eggs and bacon?"

"Perfect." I reply and he starts to cook breakfast.

We finish eating the wonderful breakfast that Peeta made. We got ready and we are on are way to the bakery. We get into the hobb and stand in front of the bakery while Peeta unlocks it to open it for the day.

"We are going to have to wait all day. When it is closing times each can meet with the person we need to meet with." Peeta says. I nod and we walk in. I sit at a table and wait till it's closing time.

It is now 4:55. We have 5 more minutes till closing time. I've waited all day. Lucka and Sage have brought me food and water through out the day, because they are working with Peeta. I'm almost positive Peeta told them to give it to me, because of my condition. Peeta and I are the only ones in the bakery right now.

"Katniss come here please," Peeta tells me. I get up and go to were he is standing." You ready to see who we have to meet?"

"Yes! I've been waiting all day," I reply like a child and he chuckles. He turns me around to see who we are meeting. I see her. A women I've known my whole life. My mom.

"Mom?" I ask tears threatening to come down my face while my body fills with anger.

"Hi Katniss," she replies. She must be happy to see me, because of the tears in her eyes. But I'm extremely mad at her.

"You left me," I say with tears coming down my face and anger taking over my body." I needed you and you weren't there! I almost died!"

"I'm sorry Katniss," she says looking at the floor.

"You could of been there when I was hurting! You could of comfort me! You could have been my mom again! You didn't even bother to call!" I yell with tears running down my face. That's why Peeta didn't tell me.

I turn to him and say," And you! You didn't tell me because you knew I wouldn't come if you did! Peeta I trusted you!" I turn back around to face my mother. I can't stay mad at either of them. I also did go a little crazy. Then maybe that's why we didn't talk. It was because she didn't know how to comfort me.

I let out a sigh and walk up to my mom. She looks up at me with tears and I wrap my arms around her for a hug." I'm sorry. I just got a little mad. I want you in my life." She must feel the same because her grip tightens. When we break I look up at Peeta who is looking at the ground. I walk up to him and he looks me straight in the eye.

"Katniss -" he starts, but I cut him off with a kiss.

* 1 month later * ( still Katniss's POV)

Everyone is happy. My mom and I are great. She is living next to where Cinna, Sage, Lucka, and Prim live. Prim and my mom opened a hospital. Peeta and I are great. He is back to living with me. Mostly because of our nightmares, but I think it is something different. Every morning he makes me breakfast before he leaves for the bakery on weekdays, and on the weekends he is off.

I love it when he does these things. He will not leave until I'm up and have breakfast. But when I woke up this morning it was different.

A/N- Kind of a cliffhanger. Hope you are enjoying the book. I will try to update again this weekend, but not promising anything.