Sensational

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TRIGGER WARNING, SORRY.

~Nina~

I honestly hated this school so much. People made fun of me daily and I didn't have many friends. I wasn't sure why, but these people got to me. I cry almost every night, wondering if life will get any better. I keep holding on just to find out but I really don't know how much longer I can stay. It's so hard, I'm so tired of it. I'm ready to let go.

"Nina, are you in here?" Diana asked. Diana had been my friend since kindergarten. She helped me through everything and knew about my depression. Not many people know and I'd like to keep it that way.

"No..." I whispered, wiping away my tears.

"Come on, Nina. Open up." She knocked on the bathroom stall. I forced myself off the floor and unlocked it. Diana opened the stall door and sat with me. "What's up, baby girl?"

"I'm tired." I mumbled, not having the energy to explain how I was actually feeling.

"Come on, let's go home." She helped me off the ground and hugged me. "You're going to be alright, I believe in you." We then walked out of the high school and into Diana's car. Diana took me to and from school everyday. She was like my sister, we were so close to each other.

"So, who was it?" Diana asked as we headed down the road to my house.

"Nobody," I said, looking out through the passenger window of the car. "I'm just tired, that's all."

"Nina, you're not fooling me. Somebody said something. I need to know what was said and who said it."

"Dylan. He's such a dick." Dylan was a guy who tried getting with me. I didn't like him, so I turned him down. Ever since then, he's made my life hell. He's always spreading rumors and making sly comments toward me. I don't see why he's so mean to me, it's not like I ruined anything of his.

This morning, I walked into school with Diana. Dylan started laughing at me for no apparent reason and his whole group started laughing with him. I tried to brush it off, but it just killed my mood. During second period, he saw a cow in his textbook and told everyone it looked like me. I just sat there while everyone laughed because I had nothing to use against him. Finally, at lunch, he tripped me and my food hit the principle. I apologized to Mr. Brown afterwards but I just broke down. Dylan does this all the time, I'm sick and tired of it.

Diana and I had small talk before she dropped me off.

"Do I need to stay here or will you be alright?" Diana asked as I got out of the car.

"I think you're good to go. I'll be fine here." I lied, pulling down my sleeves.

"Okay. Promise that I'll see you tomorrow?"

"Yeah, I promise." Maybe in a hospital.

"Love you, baby girl." Diana said pulling out of the driveway. I waved her a goodbye before going inside. I threw my stuff down on the floor and headed straight to the bathroom. I got out my suicide letter that I had been keeping for a while and kissed it. I placed it down on the sink and started my plan.

I texted Diana that I loved her, she responded quickly with the usual response. I love you too. I looked at my phone vibrate due to her text I had received but I didn't open it. I didn't want to lead her on. I ran the bath water and got my razor blades. I began to cry, thinking of everything I'm letting go of. It's not a lot, but it got me this far. I cut as deep as I could with my razor blade and sat in the tub. Hopefully I would just bleed out. The pain was unbearable as blood poured out of me. I ducked my head under the water and held my breath.

I began feeling light headed and that's when I knew that this was it. I'm so sorry.

- imma_mess_ok -

So, this is my new book. I hope you guys like it.

Nina is played by Liana Liberato.