Sensational

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~Nina~

Reviews. That's all I've seen since the video was posted. A lot of people thought I was amazing and there were many shares. I would scroll through the comments everyday, just seeing all the love. Now, along with the love came hate. I read a few of the nasty comments but I never actually let them get to me. It's just people who think they're better when they're behind a computer screen. They're sitting at home, probably hating life while I'm here enjoying everything.

Diana would go on social media and show me every time she saw my video posted online. She thought it was absolutely amazing I was getting internet famous in such little amount of time. I think it kind of took off when Diana shared me onto her Instagram and Twitter, which has a ton of active followers on each.

I knew deep down that sooner or later these people would probably find out who I was. There's a lot of people at my old school that knew what I went through. They could easily tell the world that slither of information and ruin my life completely. If the world found out, I wouldn't know how to address it.

'Oh, yeah, I used to cut myself and I tried killing myself so I went to a mental institution.'

That wouldn't really end up the way I want it to. My life would be absolutely terrible. I love this cloud nine feeling, I never want to go back to the way I was. That was a bad time in my life and I never want to go back.

Plus, my family can't keep moving to get away from my problems. I have to learn to face everything correctly and calmly. I don't need to hurt myself just because something bad happened that's temporary. Everything is temporary, even me. I need to make the best out of what I have. Nobody ever knows how long they have until they stop breathing. I think with knowing that now, I need to live up to every second I have. A second wasted is another worthless memory. I need new memories, ones where I'm laughing so hard I have tears coming out of my eyes and ones where I'm having the time of my life. I need that and here in California is where it's easy to accomplish. There's so much to do here, and getting a job will help me pay for the things I want to do. I won't have to worry about being sad anymore.

I scrolled through some more comments, some saying "More!" and others giving me compliments about my voice or makeup. Since I recorded that video and it got a lot of positive reviews, I decided I wanted to record another video and start my own YouTube channel.

"Nina, are you ready for school?" My mom called from downstairs. I grabbed my book bag and ran downstairs. I couldn't be late for my first day.

Diana drove us to school and I prayed that this school would be way better than West Montgomery. When we got there, we went straight to the office to get our new schedule. Luckily, Diana and I had all but one class together. We went around the school before the bell rung, exploring around and seeing where our classes were. I was so happy that Diana would be with me just in case someone wanted to try something.

The bell rung and we went straight to first period. We got into the classroom and everyone was making noise. The bell eventually rang and the teacher came in, quieting everyone down.

"Hello, class! We have two new students today that are from North Carolina. Nina Poole will you please stand up?" I stood up and everybody said hey. The teacher continued, "Diana White, can you please stand up?"

Diana stood up next to me and I felt so weird. I held my arms close to my body, making sure nobody saw my old scars. I didn't need these people to know about my past.

"So, class, do you have any questions for Diana and Nina?" The teacher asked.

"Are you guys sisters?" A boy with dark brown hair asked.

I looked at Diana. "Biologically, no, but yeah she is."

"What was it like in North Carolina?" A preppy looking girl asked.

"Pretty boring, there's not much to do. Although, the seasons are amazing." Diana answered.

"Aren't you the one who sung Bird Set Free?" A girl in the back asked. My heart stopped. I smiled and nodded. I didn't want to be known as that girl but it's whatever.

"Can you sing for us?" Someone asked. I gulped really hard. I've never sung in front of a lot of people.

"Pick something by Demi Lovato or Sia." I said, not wanting to let this opportunity down. People started yelling suggestions but there was one I heard I stuck with.

"Okay, I'll sing Stone Cold by Demi." I said, pulling up the lyrics online.

I waited for the classroom to quiet down and I started singing, setting my mind to my depression when I was completely heartbroken but I was so emotionless.

"Stone cold, stone cold. You see me standing but I'm dying on the floor..." I began. I killed the whole song, showing off my vocals and putting the right emotions in the song.

When I finished, everyone clapped and complimented me. I just thanked everyone and smiled. It felt so great, I just wanted to cry.

Then the teacher got everyone silent and began class.

- imma_mess_ok -

So I'm going through a lot of shit right now so if this story gets :((( then I'm sorry. My depression is really honestly kicking my ass right now so I'm trying to get through it. Thank you for reading this. I love you all.