Sensational

5

~Nina~

I looked up at the ceiling in my room with thoughts flooding my mind. I wanted to get out of this place. I hated it here, I was so disconnected from the outside world. That gave me anxiety to think about.. I didn't know anything that was happening in the world. My school could've been blown up, or another war could've started. Maybe Isis took over America, hell if I know. It takes only 2 seconds for something to completely change. Brad could've came and took my mom, or my mom could have found someone special while I've been in here. Leo DiCaprio could've won an Oscar for all I know. I hate not knowing, it's horrible. I don't know if anyone is okay other than these people in this institution. I don't see why they lock us up in this place, it just makes you go even crazier than you were before you got in here. I even miss the weather outside. Summer time was always beautiful to me. Everything was so beautiful, the trees were green and everything was colorful again. Plus, it was warm out. I loved summer, like most people. Many people loved it because you could go to the pool and beach. I loved it because nature was so captivating during the hot season. I loved how the sun would shine and glisten on the lake water. It made everything so pretty, even the basic trees around the lake.

I got up from my bed and went out of my room. Thankfully they didn't lock the doors on this hallway. Now, some others had to be locked because some people needed to stay in their room all night long. I walked down the hall in my ugly pajamas and just roamed the giant building. I couldn't sleep and I didn't have anything better to do.

The institution smelled like a hospital with a twist. I was still trying to figure out what that twist was. The smell made me think of if someone went through a hospital and sprayed tons of Febreeze everywhere. I didn't like the smell but I had to get used to it. I was going to be here for at least a month, if I recover quickly. The therapist told me it all depended on if I was ready to recover and get out of here. I was ready to get out of here, but I wasn't sure if I was ready to recover. I loved the feeling of cutting myself, it made me feel really better. I know that doing something always comes with a cost now, so to get out of this place, I have to recover.

I felt a tear roll down my cheek but I wasn't even sure why. I didn't have a good reason to cry. Maybe everything just kept building up and I haven't let any of my emotions out yet. I began to cry, so I just sat down on the cold tiles. I didn't know what else to do except cry. I absolutely hated crying but I couldn't exactly stop.

"Hey." I heard a male voice come closer to me. I didn't look up to see who it was but I kept hearing the footsteps get closer to me.

"Hey," he repeated, "what's wrong?"

"I'm ready to go home." I mumbled. I glanced beside me, seeing Kale's features lit lightly by the moonlight shining through the small windows.

"You'll be able to go home soon. I was just looking at your records. You only have two weeks left if you don't mess up." He said, rubbing my back.

"Two weeks is a long time." I stated.

"Hey, at least you get to go home." Kale smiled.

"What do you mean?"

"I barely get to go home. I'm usually stuck here."

"Why?" I asked.

"I have nothing to go home to. I'm not married or anything, I don't have any animals and so on."

"You could just go home to sleep."

"See, the problem with that is I'm an insomniac. I don't get much sleep." He said, looking to the small windows.  "I was institutionalized when I was just a kid and I stayed here for almost 3 years. It was hell, I'll say. One of the employees here helped me get better to the point where I could get out of here. He inspired me to become what I am today. I want to help people in here just like he did to me."

"That's so great, you can't find a lot of people like that. You're making me believe there's still a bit of humanity in this world."

"There's not a lot of it, so if you find some keep it close to your heart." Kale said. I think I was starting to fall in love with him.

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See the Leo DiCaprio reference. Wow, I'm lame.