The Tomlinson's nanny. (L.T)

New Years Realisations.

31st Dec 2013.

LOUIS' POV.

The last few days have flown by and tomorrow we head back to work after our break at home.

Liv has been really busy helping mum preparing for the twins arrival, although I have noticed her glancing at her phone every now and then, the way she smiles, I know its Harry, but if I'm honest I wish that she would smile at me that way.

I feel my stomach clench with jealousy, a feeling that is becoming somewhat familiar, I am angry, with Olivia, with Harry but mostly with myself.
I am not used to being jealous and I don't like the person it turns me into.

I have Amber though, and I really do like her, maybe not as much as I like Olivia but there are feelings there, aren't there? She's pretty, funny, cheeky and incredible in bed, so every time I kiss her why am I wishing it was Liv?

How can I be rebounding when I was never in a relationship to begin with? I really need to sort my head out.
Is it Amber or Olivia?
I think the answer is pretty obvious.
If I had the choice it would be Olivia in a heartbeat, there is something about that girl and I knew it the moment I found her in my bed, I wanted her to be mine.

I honestly thought she felt the same way about me, I'm not usually wrong, but if she does why does she fight her feelings so much and why does she spend so much time with Harry?
And if she doesn't have feelings for me then why does she seem so sad?
These are things that I really need to know.

Maybe I could ask her tonight, we have this New Years double date thing happening, Amber and myself, Harry and Olivia.
I'm not exactly keen on the idea, it's kind of stupid to be honest, like I really want to watch Liv and Harry get all up close and personal, but Amber came up with the idea and Liv seemed okay with it, so here I am getting ready to go out, with a girl I don't really like, to watch the girl I actually do like be with my best friend, sounds like a party to me!

I pace around my bedroom, honestly feeling like locking myself in here for the night and just not dealing with any of the crap going on right now, but I can hear Olivia singing to herself in the shower and her voice honestly makes my stress melt away, I open my door so that I can hear better and have to fight the urge to go and join her, but I can't because she is not mine, and it kills me that she isn't, I want so badly to be able to call her mine.

I decide that I probably need a shower too so I grab what I need and wait outside of the bathroom door for Liv to finish.
Before long I hear the water shut off, the door handle jiggles a bit and the door swings open, Liv walks out in nothing but a towel, no make up, hair natural, just her, beautiful, breath taking Olivia.

I must have been staring because she is looking at me expectantly.

"Do you need something Louis?" She asks, gosh I wish she would go back to calling me Lou, she continues taking small steps towards her bedroom as she speaks.

Just to kiss you.

"I-no, just to-uh waiting for the shower.." I reply sheepishly, lame, so lame!

She just nods and moments later is out of sight behind her bedroom door, I sigh deeply and shake my head as I trudge into the bathroom.

I turn the shower on and I can still smell her sweet shampoo, I take a second to just close my eyes and breathe in the scent before I realise something, I am a creep, a total creep.

I strip and step under the now warm water, cleaning myself all over before getting out again.
I dry myself mostly before wrapping the towel around my waist and securing it before making my way back to my bedroom where I dress and spray myself with some cologne that Liv once complimented.
Once I am satisfied with my appearance I grab my phone and wallet and head downstairs to wait for Harry and Amber to arrive.

A few minutes later Liv walks down the stairs and I know for sure that tonight will be hell for me, she looks so damn good and she's spending tonight with Harry, not me.

Jealousy washes over me again and I can't help the scowl that finds its way onto my face.

I have to make her mine.

But something in me feels like it would be impossible, lucky I'm persistent.

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Ohhhhkayyyy, once again sorry for the late chapter, better late than never though! Hope you enjoy Louis POV and getting a little insight into how Louis feels about Olivia!

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