I Only Meant To Do This To Myself

2 - I Can't Wait To See Your Brilliant Face

2- I Can't Wait To See Your Brilliant Face
Pierce The Veil - One Hundred Sleepless Nights

At 6am, my alarm went off, blaring out 'One Hundred Sleepless Nights' by Pierce The Veil. I rolled over to turn it off and soon after dragged myself out from the warmness of my bed covers to get ready. I head straight for the shower and cherished the hot water.
I threw on a PTV top, it had a broken skateboard on it and said 'Pierce The Veil California', ripped black skinny jeans, many bracelets and some black vans. For my hair and make up, I did the usual; foundation, concealer, powder, eyebrow pencil, winged eyeliner, smudged black eyeshadow under my eyes and lip balm. I teased my hair a little and out some hairspray on it. I also put in a fake nose ring. What? I like it, plus I haven't gotten my nose pierced yet.

I checked the time and saw that it was 6:50am. Luke should be here soon. I sat downstairs watching Kerrang!
I decided not to bother with breakfast and packed some water for the concert. I do not want water that has been passed down to me by the crowd. God knows what's in that.
I heard the door bell go off and practically ripped the door off of its hinges with my bag and car keys in hand.
"Hello to you too!" Luke laughs, I laugh too.
"Right, I've got water bottles and my camera and phone. Shall we go?" I ask, raising an eyebrow.
"Yaaas! Is it okay if we stop for something to eat on the way? I haven't eaten yet." He asks. I nod in reply, "sure, no problem." I smile and get in my car, throwing my bag in the back. Luke does the same and gets in the passenger seat.
"Wanna listen to some Pierce?" Luke suggests.
"Was that a serious question?" I laugh, Luke lets out a low chuckle and plugs the aux cable into his phone and 'May These Noises Startle You In Your Sleep' starts to ring out through the speakers and I softly head bang along to it because I'm driving, but Luke is full on head banging by the time 'Hell Above' comes on. I start singing at the top of my lungs and we roll the windows down, mainly to see people's reactions to our music choice, but also because it's fucking hot in my car.

***
Pulling into McDonalds drive through, I ask what Luke wants and I order it and he hands me the money to pay for it.
"You're not getting anything?" He asks, skeptically raising an eyebrow. Shit I thought, "uh, no. I'm not hungry." I lie, flashing him a forced smile. Luke looks at me and just hums a "mmhmm." As a response. He knows.

***
When I start driving again, there is tension in the air so thick you could bite into it. There is no music playing, because Luke wanted to charge his phone using the cigarette lighter... Which is in the back of the car. Fun. I smell the food he is eating and my stomach rumbles but I cover it up with a cough.
"You know you're terrible at lying and covering things up, right?" Luke suddenly says. I stay silent and keep my eyes on the road. "Look, May. I'm your best friend. I can read you like a book. I know what you are doing to yourself and you may think you deserve this but you really fucking don't. You are worth a thousand more times more than you think you are, you are one of the most amazing people ever and it hurts not just me, but Violet too to see you like this, to see you doing this to yourself." He bursts out again. I take a deep breath. "If you were me you'd do the same." I reply. Luke laughs a little, "now isn't really the time to be quoting songs, darling." He mumbles. I hear a rustling sound and look over to see Luke pushing some chips across the dashboard to me. I shake my head. "Please?" He begs. "No. They're yours, you need them." I say, shaking my head slowly. "No, you need them. I'm not getting into an argument about this. Eat." He says. I sigh and pick a small one up, my eyes still on the road.
We came to a stop light and I examined the chip. How many calories are in this? Ew. It's so greasy and salty. Salt makes you bloat, I shouldn't eat this. Ugh it's going to make me even fatter, I need to reach my weight goal.
I put the chip in my mouth and pretend to eat it. Seeing as the window was open still, when Luke wasn't looking, I took it out of my mouth and threw it out the window. "You're going to eat more, right?" Luke asks, eyeing me over.
"Yeah, but I'm driving right now. I'll wait until we are queuing up at the venue." I reply and Luke nods in response.

***

Pulling up to the venue, I park the car and we get grab all that we need to take with us out of the back. I dramatically get the now cold chips off of the dashboard and Luke nods in approval. As we were walking to the queue, I pretend to trip and spill the chips on the floor. "Shit." I say to make this all more believable. "I'll get you something from the venue during the show." Luke smiles at me and pulls me into a hug. Seriously? I didn't even think they served food. I mumble a thank you and we walk to the queue.

***
After queuing for what felt like an eternity, we finally were inside and somehow managed to get to the front. Once the room was filled and people had been chatting amongst themselves, PTV ran on stage and the magic began...

*skip to after the concert*

"HOLY SHIT THAT WAS AMAZING!" Luke and I scream at each other. "Oh my god! When Kellin came on stage and sang King For A Day with Vic was sick!" I exclaimed and Luke laughed at my hyperactiveness but agreed with me.

We were now sat in my car, about to leave just as Luke said "hey, is that Pierce over there?" We both immediately got out of the car to see if it was, and walking over. On the way over, my head started to feel as if someone was squishing it and my breathing was short; it wasn't long until I collapsed and heard Luke shout my name as five men ran over.

***
I hope this doesn't suck,
Erin