I Only Meant To Do This To Myself

3 - That's When You Threw The First Punch

1 - That's When You Threw The First Punch
Pierce The Veil - The First Punch

I woke up with a hurting head and faintly hearing some guys talking. I sat up from the sofa I was on and took in my surroundings. It seemed I was in a living room, but who's? I'm not sure.
"Luke?" I call out, my voice was a bit hoarse like it would be if I'd just woken up after a good nights sleep. I hear a door open and see Luke rush over to me and hug me as tight as possible. "Luke I can't breath." I chuckle quietly.
"Oh, sorry." Luke breaths out and scratches the back of his neck, looking down. "What happened? And where are we?" Luke gives me a sad yet excited look. "Well, we were walking over to see if who we thought was PTV was PTV and you just collapsed and hit your head pretty hard. Saying I was scared doesn't even come close to what I felt then," he looks down and drags a hand across his face, he then looks up. "And as for where we are, we are in Pierce The Veil's tour bus." He smiles. "Kellin's here too, he wanted to make sure you were okay."
"What?" I ask, with a confused face. Luke points to the door and right before my eyes stand Jaime, Mike, Vic, Tony and Kellin all smiling at me.

"How are you feeling?" Mike asks, coming to sit down next to me and the others find a place to sit as well. "I'm fine, I guess... My head hurts a little but that's all." I shrug and smile. They all give me a look as if they don't believe me. "You hungry at all? I was thinking of making some breakfast." Vic inquires, I shake my head a little, avoiding looking at Luke. "No, I'm alright thanks, I'm not hungry at the moment." I say just as Luke says, "Yeah, she is. She would love something to eat thank you." The guys share a look and I just sit there. "I'll just make something for all of us, shall I?" Vic suggests, getting up and walking to the kitchen area of the tour bus.

"I'm going to help. Anyone else coming?" Luke asks, annoyance and sadness clear in his tone. Tony and Jaime nod and walk with him.

I look around the room and remember that they don't know my name or anything.
"Oh! By the way, my name is May, the guy I'm with is Luke. He's one of my best friends." I smile at Mike and Kellin.
"Yeah, he told us about you. You're lucky to have him, he's got your back." Kellin smiles. "I know..." I trail off. "What exactly did he tell you?" I ask, shifting a little bit and staying not to make it obvious I'm snapping a rubber band on my wrist.
"Just that you two have been best friends with this other girl, Violet, for as long as he can remember." Mike says. "Oh, and that you're eighteen and you got him into liking our bands." I smile at that. He didn't tell them about the dark me. They won't judge me now.

***

We were all sat with a plate of pancakes in the living room and I was just slowly cutting mine up and pushing them around the plate as everyone else was eating theirs. "Maaaay? You there?" Jaime said, waving a hand in front of my face. I snap out of whatever I was in and make a fool of myself by just replying with, "hmm?" And looking around stupidly. The guys laughed and then Vic repeated whatever he said.
"I was asking if you were okay, you were pretty zoned out just then." Vic smiled, but there was worry in his eyes.
"Oh, yeah. Yeah, I'm just not that hungry... I have quite a small stomach and I ate a lot after the concert because I forgot to eat before." I say and Luke argues. Why is he doing this? He's just creating drama. "May, just... Please eat. For me? You–" I cut him off. "I'm just going to go outside for some air." I say loudly, walking outside and sitting on the floor, resting my head against the side of the bus.

I feel someone's presence next to me and then I hear them sigh and sit next to me. "You know he's just trying to help you, right?" Vic says. I turn my head to look at him. "I don't need help." I say in a near whisper. "When was the last time you ate something?" He presses on. "I don't know." I reply. Vic winces at this. "If you don't mind me asking, why do you wear so many bracelets?" He knows that he's treading on thin ice, but then again, he's been where I am. He will somewhat understand what I'm going through. "I like bracelets." I say. "Can I have a look at them?" He asks. I nod and Ho,d out my arms. I can tell he's looking for scars or cuts but he won't find any there. "I like this one." He says, pointing to my PTV bracelet. I chuckle and so does he. "Let's go inside." Vic says, holding his hand out after getting up to help me up.