dear haeri | pjm

十四

in the blinking of an eye, two months have passed and right now, jimin was back facing the swing again, all alone.

taking hold of the tired swing's lone chains, jimin tried twisting it round and round till the poor, rusty chains were taut with tension, making the creaking sounds even more audible. it was until jimin sat on the dried out, grey seat, the wood complaining rather noisily under his weight, did he finally release all the strain he had caused the worn out, but deeply loved elder swing. closing his eyes, jimin then enjoyed the almost floating sensation as the world blended together and spun round faster and faster.

"i will miss you", jimin sucked in a deep breath,

"and i will remember you too, my dearest first friend", he muttered again before slowly dragging his feet on the ground to come to a stop.

as soon as his ride halted, jimin let out a loud sigh. then, fiddling with something in his pocket, jimin eventually brought out an envelope which was soon revealed to be another one of haeri's letter.

the day before, jimin had actually retrieved it from his locker, just that he couldn't bring himself to read it. he was afraid that he might not be able to control himself but now that he had made up his mind, nothing would matter. so, bravely tearing up the sides of the envelope, jimin began reading,

12 october 2015

dear jimin,

i'm sorry. i shouldn't have ignored you. i realised that it has been a month since we last talked. everyday, you never fail to text or leave me with those voice calls, until just last week, everything stopped coming in. you no longer look at me in school, follow me back home or take the same bus as me. it seemed like you have finally given up talking to me and decided to leave me alone but my heart, it actually hurts even more now. i can't explain that sort of feeling but there's one thing i'm quite sure about it myself now and i hope that it's not too late of me to let you know.

i think i'm in love with you, jimin. although it all started out by just me watching you and all, i guess i eventually started developing those feelings for you. day by day, i was oblivious to those growing feels until now, that you decided to leave me, i could feel the emptiness in my heart and i don't think i can lose you. you mean so much to me now so please, i beg of you.

park jimin, could you please leave bangtan and come back to me?

with love,
haeri

jimin was almost in tears after he was done reading it. of course, he was more than happy to hear that haeri have had feelings for him, but this, can only lead to nowhere.

there can never be a happy ending for us, jimin had thought. and just nice, ruining the moment for him once again, bangtan texted him.

bangtan: yah shorty. remember that today's the deadline for our report. or else... you know what will happen ψ(｀∇')ψ

with a self mocking laugh, jimin let his phone slipped through his fingers. he threw his phone madly onto the ground and pulling the sides of his hair angrily, he let out a growl. this carried on for a few minutes until finally, he managed to calm himself down. pushing everything else behind his head and reaching into his bag, jimin brought out his pen.