Wake the Dead

chapter 27

I felt the bouncing of a car as my senses started to come back. I'm not sure where I was or what was going on, but for some reason I don't want to open my eyes.. I don't want to be awake.

I slowly flickered my eyes open anyway, not really knowing what is going on. I was in Otis's old truck, laying down while Daryl drives. I looked down to see my right hand was bandaged and was stinging like a bitch. I thought really hard about what is going on and then I remembered there was a horde attacking the farm. 

I sat up a little bit and Daryl jumped, looking at me like I was going to shatter into pieces. I then remembered what had happened. "Where's Syd?" I asked, but received no answer. "WHERE IS SYD!?" I screamed and then sat all the way up. "NO! NOOO!" I screamed as I kicked and punched against the truck, remembering what had happened. I lunged for the car door, I couldn't breathe. Daryl slammed on the breaks and honked the horn as I opened the door and got out of the car, falling to my knees. I heard Daryl's door shut and he came running around. 

 I remembered things in flashes...The exact walker that took the first bite out of her and how Rick tried to hold me back. I remembered her face that had been ripped up and destroyed. I remembered leaving her to be eaten. 

I felt someone approach me, but I kicked and pushed them away. I sat on my hands and knees, sobbing uncontrollably and screaming. I felt by body give out as I collapsed completely onto the cement. Everyone was standing around me, staring with scared eyes, but then someone came down on the ground with me, I looked up and saw it was Daryl. 

He pulled me into his chest and held me while I sobbed uncontrollably. I felt cold, and completely broken.. I want to go, but I also want Daryl. Everyone started to slowly disperse and I think I heard them say we would camp here for the night. 

I stopped sobbing, I had no more tears or emotions left. I felt Daryl shift and pick me up bridal style, then carry me over to a very small fire that was going on the side of the road. I wanted to push him off me, but I couldn't remember how to make my body work.

It was dark again, and I was freezing. Daryl sat me down and then sat next to me, not even leaving my side once. 

I just started to stare at the fire. Everything was gone. My life has finally gone from terrible, to not even worth living. I saw how the fire crackled and the flames grew and all I wanted was to feel the flames burn me, I wanted to feel something...anything.

I felt Daryl put his hand on my lower back, trying to provide comfort. I felt that small tingle on my skin when he touched me, it wasn't as strong as it was before, but it reminded me that I still had Daryl. Maybe he was what I needed to stay alive and feel again. 

I heard Carol whisper something to Daryl, but I ignored it, not wanting to punch her in the face. "What if another horde comes by? Or a group like Randal's" I heard someone ask, not really paying attention enough to know who. 

"Ya know I found Randal right? Was a walker, but wasn't bit." Daryl's raspy voice said. He hadn't said anything since I woke up, so his voice was refreshing. "Shane killed Randal, jus' like he always wanted to."

"And then the horde got him?" Lori asked, clueless as always. 

I knew they where all asking these questions to Rick, but I didn't hear him respond for a while. "We're all infected... "

"What?" I heard Daryl ask and then move a little more towards me. 

"At the C.D.C. Jenner told me... What ever it is, we all carry it."

I tried to stop my self, but I started laughing like a fucking crazy person. I felt every ones eyes turn to me, but I didn't look up from the fire. I could feel my self go crazy, I knew it and I didn't need these people judging me with their eyes right now.