Avery Guevarra Lim, a lady with class and a woman with brain tends to marry a Class-A womanizer, Raven Lim. They quarrel and annoy each other the whole time but despite that, a secret is hidden somewhere between them.
Would they accept the fact? Or...
I hugged him hard as he was burying his face on my neck. I could feel where he was coming from. Masasabi kong hindi rin naman madali iyong paglayo niya. I can't understand his logic. But I was also in hell during those times.
I sighed.
"Raven, why did you distance yourself from me? I thought..." We can do it together... that's what I want to say but I just kept my mouth shut. Hindi pa naman kasi kami klaro noong mga nakaraang araw.
He looked up at me... and sighed. I can see fear and at the same time guilt in his eyes. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang ibig sabihin niyon ngunit nakasisiguro akong hindi iyon naging madali para sa kanya. Whatever it is, I'm willing to take the pain away.
"I... I had a bad experience 6 years ago, Avery. With my mom still alive during that time..." He started saying and held my hand. He placed it on his cheeks and leaned against it.
"I was devastated that time. Imagine. I was just fifteen years old. My dad had another woman. Mom kept on crying every night because of him. They were always fighting every single fcking day na halos mabingi na ako sa mga sigaw nila. School wasn't that good to me either. And... I'm not good in handling problems, Av. Christian knows that 'coz we're classmates during that time. That is... well... my weakness. Nakita mo iyon diba?" He looked at me.
I nodded and held his hand signalling him to go on talking.
"So, yeah. I was mad with my dad. I was furiously mad with him for hurting my mom who didn't do anything but love us unconditionally. Ang sabi ni dad, mom wasn't his first love. Well I said, screw that first love thing! Ang mas importante kami! Me and mom because we are his present! Pero ano? He didn't listen to me. Ipinagpatuloy niya pa rin iyong ginagawa niya. Dammit! Did he really love us? I guess no... no... he didn't!" Bakas sa tono ng boses ni Raven ang galit. Galit sa kanyang ama.
Oh, Raven... what I would do to take your pain away. I hugged him tight. As if saying that I am here... for him.
"He didn't! F**k. Until one night, I got drunk. Christian took me home and as I enter our house, I saw dad with her b-tch. They we-re..." Raven closed his eyes as if it's hard for him to think again about what happened way back...
"They were all over each other! And what's worse? My mom was there watching them shove their tongue on each other's throat and for fucks sake, she was crying silently in pain! I can't take it! Sa sobrang galit ko, nilapitan ko sila Dad at nasaktan ko ang babae niya. Wait, nasaktan? No. To hurt her was an understatement. I almost killed her Avery! Sht. I almost killed her just because of the extreme anger I felt plus the effect of what I drank." He shook his head continuously at napatinging muli sa akin.
"You see, Av? Hindi ko kayang kontrolin ang sarili ko. That's why lumayo ako sa iyo dahil alam kong ang nagawa ko sa iyo noon ay hindi lang basta... rape." Napakunot ang noo niya. Ayaw niya talagang sabihin ang salitang iyon.
"At hindi ko alam kung anong ginawa ko sa iyo noon lalung-lalo na at hindi lang alak ang nasa sistema ko noon. Maybe I harassed you, I don't know! I'm so sorry!"
I closed my eyes. Yes. He almost harassed me but no... I won't tell him.
"N-no, Raven... you didn't." I lied.
Matapos ng pag-uusap namin ni Raven, I already understood why he did that. Ang paglayo sa akin. I was right. He is a tough man but he is weak and fragile inside. But that didn't lessen my feelings for him.
In fact, I want to make him stronger. I want him to use me as his light to become a better person. I want him to face and conquer his fears and doubts through me.
Because I love him.
❥ ❥ ❥
"Raven?" Kumatok ako sa pinto ng kwarto niya. Kakain na kami ng hapunan. Pagkatapos kasi naming mag-usap we both fell asleep. We just hugged each other until we both slept.
Nauna akong nagising sa kanya at namalayan ko na lang na nasa kwarto niya pala kami. Maybe Raven transferred me there. Well, patay tulog ako. Alam ko iyon kaya't hindi man lang ako nagising.
Walang sumagot kaya ay pumasok na lang ako. Baka hindi na naman kumain iyong kumag na 'yon. As I entered his room, narinig ko na lang ang lagaslas ng tubig mula sa shower room niya at natigil iyon.
After a few minutes, nagbukas ang pinto nito at lumabas ang isang Greek God. Not to mention, a hot Greek God.
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I bit my lower lip. GOODNESS!
Bigla akong pinagpawisan! Napalunok ako nang paulit-ulit. His hair was slightly damp making him look so hot. Basa pa ang kanyang dibdib at kita ng kaunti ang tattoo niya sa may V-line niya. His biceps were screaming "Touch me, Avery".
OH MY GOD, nababaliw na ba ako?!
"Ah, R-Raven. P-pinuntahan lang kita dito para kainin.." WHAT THE HELL?
Tumawa si Raven.. tumikhim ako, pulang pula na ang mukha ko! "I-I mean, para ayain kang k-kumain! L-labas muna ako," I quickly said as I paced through the door and opened it but before I do that, bigla may mga kamay na pumulupot sa bewang ko at hinila palapit sa katawan nito.
He placed his face on my neck and his left hand was on my waist and the other was on my thigh, slowly caressing it. I felt hot all over.
