Everyone's running from something but we don't know when it's coming...

~Chapter 33~ First chemo

Rose's pov:

It's been three days since my mum told us that she has cancer and today is her first chemo so I'm coming with her to the hospital. To say that I'm nervous is and understatement.... I've set my alarm clock at 7AM, cause we have to be there at 9AM, and have to drive to the hospital. 

I woke up from my alarm and to be honest I didn't want to go out of bed, I didn't want to go with her anymore, cause I was scared. I mean it's the first time so it's scary, but she's gonna do this many more times. And then she's gonna lose her hair and all those other side effects. I've ignored my mum for a few years cause I was mad at her, and just now that we're okay again she has to get that fucking cancer! I can't lose her, I regret the years that I've ignored her and I want to spend time with her now. But no, now she has to be ill... I dragged myself out of bed and went for a quick shower, trying not to wake Danny. When I came out of the shower and dressed in my jeans and a simple black t-shirt, put my hair in a messy bum and applied some mascara. Then I went downstairs to have breakfast and put my shoes on. I went back to the bedroom and saw that Danny has woken up by now.

"Morning." He said smiling at me.

"Good morning." I said sitting on the edge of the bed.

"I'm gonna pick my mum up in a few minutes can you please walk with Skyler when you're getting up?" I asked him.

"Yeah sure." He said sitting up with his head against the headboard of the bed. 

"Thanks, but i've got to go now." I said giving him a quick kiss and standing up.

"Good luck baby." He said before I walked out of the bedroom.

"Thank you." I said faking a smile at him. 

I got my coat and stepped in my car and drove to my mum. When I arrived at her house she came walking out of the door and stepped next to me in the car in the passenger seat.

"You're ready?" I asked her in a hug.

"I think so." She said trying to hold it together for me. The rest of the journey to the hospital was in silence we were both listening to the radio until 'superheroes' came on and I smiled to myself. My mum noticed me smiling and said smiling at me,

"You love him eh?"

"Yeah." I said still smiling.

"He's a keeper." She said still looking at me.

"I know." I replied. When the song ended I said suddenly,

"Every day every hour, turn the pain into power."

"What do you mean?" My mum asked confused.

"That's what they sing in superheroes and I want you to do that while you're having chemo's." I said keeping my eyes on the road.

"I promise sweetheart. Winners never quit, quitters never win." She said smiling at me. I laughed at her at how she quoted the lyrics from 'broken arrow', and we continued our journey to the hospital. After 20 minutes we arrived at the hospital and walked into the room where we were told that we had to wait until the doctor was ready. Typical for an hospital, you're told to be here at 9 and then you still have to wait half an hour...

When the doctor finally came and told us to follow him so he could explain what they were gonna do I got even more nervous than I already was and I didn't even know that that was possible. I think my mum felt that I was nervous so she grabbed my hand, squeezed it and gave me one of her reassuring smiles like there was nothing going wrong. That her life wasn't on the edge... We came into a room and were told to sit down and the doctor started explaining everything. But I couldn't keep my attention to him, I didn't even remember his name. The only thing I could think about was "What if she's gonna die?" I know that I have to stay positive, cause we're already lucky that they want to give it a shot to help her. Cause if there if actually no chance of surviving, most of the times they don't do anything against it anymore. I guess that I just have to try to be positive. So I thought about what she said in the car on our way to here, winners never quit quitters never win. I always liked that lyrics but now it makes me even more think about how true it is. 

I think the doctor was finished explaining everything cause we were taken to a different room where he set everything up for my mum. I can remember when I was about 7 and my granddad had cancer and he went for his chemo's, we were allowed to stay with him the fist few minutes but then we had to leave him. I never liked to leave him cause I was afraid that he would be in pain but he always told me that he was okay and wasn't in pain. Back then I believed him, but I know that I have to leave my mum as well in a few minutes and I know that she's afraid for what's coming even though she's saying that she's not. I know that she is and it kills me that I have to leave her. The doctors told me that it was time to leave so I gave her a big hug and told her to call me when she was finished.

I slowly walked back to my car and sighed when I sat down. I started the engine and drove back home, I knew Dan would be home cause he stayed home today to support us for when we were done in the hospital. I arrived back home and opened the door and walked to the living room where I saw Dan sitting on the couch, still in his boxers. I couldn't blame him cause it was only 11AM. He saw me walking in and embraced me in one of those amazing hugs.

"How was it?" He whispered in my hear while I stood with my head against his chest.

"Though." I said.

"I understand that, but she's a fighter, she can get through this." He said stroking my back.

"Winner never quit, quitters never win." I said smiling against his chest.

"Exactly." He said smiling down at me.

"Do you want a cup of tea?" He asked letting go of me.

"No, I'll just have a walk with Skyler. Cause I don't think you've already done that, or, you're done it in your boxers." I said nodding towards his boxers.

"Sorry babe, I fell back asleep and I just got up." He said.

"It's okay." I said giving him a kiss on his cheek.

"Wait! I'm coming with you, give me a second." He said running up the stairs. He came back in his black skinny jeans and a t-shirt. Then he put his shoes on and grabbed his leather jacket.

"Let's go!" He said grabbing Skyler her lead and my hand. We walked in comfortable silence with our fingers still intertwined. When we reached a bench in the park we decided to sit down for a minute while Skyler was trying to catch the birds and running around like crazy.

"What are you thinking about?" Danny asked me wrapping his arm around my waist.

"About my very, very, very handsome boyfriend." I said smiling at him.

"And who is the lucky guy?" He said smirking.

"Well, he's in a band, dark hair, funny, very sweet and good looking." I said.

"And what's his name?"

"Glen." I said trying to sound serious.

"Oi cheeky!" He said laughing and took me on his lap and kissed me.

"Dan there are people here, there could be press here." I said breaking the kiss.

"I don't care. Everybody may know how much I love you." He replied kissing me again, and I kissed back this time. We decided to go back home as it started to rain now, typical Ireland. When we arrived back home we had a cup of tea and watched some television waiting for my mum to call. When she finally called that she was done I grabbed my coat and shoes and said to Dan,

"I'll be back in about an hour."

"Okay gorgeous, love you." He said.

"Love you too." I said walking out of the door.

I arrived at the hospital and saw my mum already waiting for me, so I ran up to her and gave her a hug.

"How was it?" I asked her when we walked back to the car

"I don't know, okay I guess." She said stepping in the car.

"I hope so." I said starting the engine and driving to her house. When I dropped her of I gave her one last hug and drove back to my own home, where my handsome boyfriend was waiting for me.