should i? | j.jk

chapter 17 - why am i hurting alone?

YOUR POV
I finally came out of the restroom after washing my face and calming myself down.

I guess restroom will be my secret hideout. I joked to myself to cheer myself up.

I was on my way to the classroom, where sana and jungkook and the other bangtan boys would probably stayed.

I stopped in front of the classroom door. I was nervous to step inside class, well to see jungkook. And i was in a deep thought.

I need to avoid him. I need to avoid him. I need to avoid him. Don't talk to him. Don't talk to him.

I kept repeating those words in my mind. I need to be strong. I can't let anger and sadness control me.

I opened the classroom door slowly.

And nobody was here..

That's strange...

Without hesitating, I went out of the classroom and went to the canteen, where they must've been there.

I looked for them in the canteen and found them.

I was still hesitating whether to go to them or not. It'll be awkward with jungkook.

I hate that i need to avoid jungkook, but its for my own good so that i'll not be hurt in the end, alone.

I found them sitting in those crowded place, where fangirls surround them. Ugh.

I approach them and fangirls gave me annoying looks and some death glares, but i dont really care.

I approach them and the first one to notice me is Jhope oppa.

"Hi (y/n)!" He greeted me. "

"Hi too Jhope oppa" i greeted back with a fake smile plastered on my face.

Then the other members turn to look at me and greeted me too.

My smile fade when i saw jungkook.

Jungkook greeted me and i could only nod with a very very very fake small smile.

I sit beside v.

"(Y/n)-ah, why do you sit beside me and not jungkook?" V asked.

"I just wanted to." I answered simply, looking down.

V then gave me his rectangular smile, which made me blush.

It's just too cute. He can kill many fangirls only with his smile. I thought.

"Hey, why dont u sit beside me?" Jungkook suddenly approach me and sits beside me, moving his chair beside me.

I need to ignore him. Ignore him.

That was all i can think about.

"Hey, answer me" jungkook said while laying his hands on my shoulders which gives me shiver down my spine.

I'm having a mental breakdown!!

Omg omg omg. Need to answer something before he do something again.

"Just want to sit beside V today" i said coldly while looking down. I somehow feel really sad talking to him.

"But i wanna be with youuuu~" jungkook pouted.

I gave him a fake smile and stand up.

I just really wanna cry right now.

"Bell's about to ring, need to go to class, bye" i made my reason to go. I was trying hard to not cry. I kept the tears in.

They all just nodded and said goodbye to me.

I went to my 'secret hideout' again.

Then, i cried.

"Why does this sadness needs to control me?!" I sobbed hard, since no one was here.

I continued crying.

I have this feeling when i saw jungkook or talked to him, i just have the feeling to be sad.

(A/n: u hv tht feeling right when u cry secretly then somebody came and ask u why u cry and u cry harder).

I cry harder and harder.

"Why won't the tears stop?!" I ask while sobbing more harder than before.

Suddenly, the door slammed opened and there came..

Sana.

"WHY ARE YOU CRYING HERE?!" Sana asked, more like yelling, worried.

I didn't bother to answer her and just keep on crying.

Sana noticed my situation and just stayed quiet.

Sana patted my back and comforted me.

"You can at least just come to me and tell me what happened" she spoke up.

I nodded slowly and calmed myself down.

After a few minutes, i calmed myself down.

"So what happened?" She asked me.

I sighed and explained everything to her.

"So, i need to avoid him so that i'll not be hurt alone later." I spoke up, finishing my words.

Sana gave me a shocked look, but then changed to a calm look.

"I guess it's up to you whether you want to ignore him or what, but i still think jungkook likes you." Sana said.

My eyes widen in shock.

"How is that even possible? He said that to me, face to face, that HE likes suzy." I said disbelief.

"Well, i just think that jungkook is just trying to make you jealous." Sana said while staring at her own reflection in the mirror, tidying her hair.

I shook my head. "Don't give me hope, Sana. That's enough for me." I sighed.

"Okay whatever you say. Let's just go." She grabbed my wrist and pulled me out from here.

We headed to the classroom since the bell just rang.

It was physics class, and good gracious. Jungkook and me will have seperated class. I will have physics class with Sana and Jimin oppa.

Great. Nothing could go wrong later.

What lesson will we have after physics? I thought to myself.

I think and think but can't figure out what class we have.

I guess i'm having so much stress that's why i can't think clearly.

I grabbed my schedule for today from my backpack and check what i have after physics class.

Yeay! We got history class!! My favorite lesson!

Oh wait. Shit.

History.

The lesson where i have class with Jungkook ..

Only.

I guess i'll hate history class from now on.

Author's note

MANSAE MANSAE MANSAE YEAH!
i hv finally updated!
And it's chapter SEVENTEEN!!

YES! MANSAE!
Soz for the unexpected seventeen 'thang'. Lol
Btw, do u like it??
And, 3/4 more days till yoongi day !!

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