should i? | j.jk

chapter 16 pt.1

JUNGKOOK'S POV
Who should i say?

Omg, i'm having a mental breakdown!

I can't confess to her right now, right here!

I should pick a random girl that i saw.

Uhm.. the only girl i could see right now is Suzy.

Without thinking long, i quickly say

"I like ... uhm.. Suzy" i said shyly.

"Oh. Good luck." (Y/n) said shortly.

YOUR POV

Please say my name, please say my name.

I was hoping for my name to be said.

I was hoping he would confess to me.

I believed in people, that Jungkook likes me.

"I like ... uhm.. Suzy" Jungkook finally said.

My heart felt like it just broke into a million pieces.

I felt like i was just stab in my heart.

Is this a dream?

Does he seriously liked Suzy?!

And not me?

I shouldn't have believed those people.

Now i'm hurt bymyself.

"Oh. Goodluck" was all i could say to him.

I shouldn't have asked him who he likes.

If only i dont ask him, i wouldn't be hurt.

But if i don't ask, i'll be wasting my time loving him.

I guess love hurts.

Love fucking hurts.

Because i fell in love with him so much.

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I remained to stay silent. And i've been thinking to avoid Jungkook as much as i can.

I don't want myself to hurt only because of him.

I'm hurt enough.

I was trying hard not to cry the whole time.

It was now awkward for both of us until Jungkook said.

"Wanna spend recess with me?" He asked while looking at my eyes.

I shook my head. I don't have the energy to say something to him. The more i remember him, the more i wanted to cry.

"Why?" He asked again.

"I wanna spend time with Sana" i lied. I know Sana will be with Jin oppa. I guess i'll spend my recess in the toilet, crying.

I just can't hold it anymore.

"Okay.. class has dismissed" the teacher said.

In a flash of light, i quickly went out of the classroom with my backpack hanged onto one of my shoulders with teary eyes.

Everybody was looking at me, but i dont care.

I quickly went to the toilet and inside the cubicle and cried.

I never know i would cry over a boy like this. I never think i would love him that much. But the truth is..

I love him so much. SO SO MUCH.

I spend the whole recess at the toilet. For 30 minutes.

Sana and the others might wonder where i am.

I went out of the cubicle since no one else is in the toilet.

I washed my face and my eyes.

My eyes were red and puffy.

I need to stop.

I need to ignore him, avoid him, and most of all...

Stop loving him.

Author's note
Hi guys!
I know it's kinda clingy
Mianhaeee
And btw, this story will be finished in like chapter 19? Probably?
Btw, keep reading! Don't worry, the ending will be beautiful.

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