chapter 25 - regrets

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JUNGKOOK'S POV

"Thank you for buying," the lady in the cashier thanked me as i bought 5 bottles of soju for my hyungs, who's gonna be having sleepover in my house.

I went out of the department store while holding a plastic bag containing the 5 bottles of soju. I was walking while having a deep thought.

Of (y/n)...

I remembered what namjoon hyung said to me.

"But she was absent today." Namjoon hyung said. I immediately widen my eyes as a reflex. "Why?!" I exclaimed. I was curious and also worried.

"How are we suppose to know?" Namjoon hyung said while laying on my bed.

"Then can you ask her?" I asked.

"Ask her yourself, jungkook." Suga hyung said. "Pleaseeeee" i begged them. They all shake their head at first but afterwards, gave in for me, their precious maknae, who's having a hard time.

"Let me text (y/n) then." V hyung said. I stand up and went to sit beside v hyung to see his text.

Bwitter: helloooooo
Bwitter: its me :)
Bwitter: y u no come to school today :(
Bwitter: i worry for u

"Hyung, can't you type with the correct grammar?" I said, annoyed at how v hyung typed to her. The way he typed to her sounds like they had a very close relationship. And that surely makes me jealous.

Well to be honest, for these past few days i was absent, i was actually really sick, of love. I kept on locking myself in the room. I didn't get out of this room for a few days. I didnt even ate and drink.. at all. I just locked myself in the room, making my mom and dad worried.

I locked myself in the room because of depression. Depression of love. (Y/n) and taemin being together was my worst nightmare.. and it became real. My heart shuttered into pieces and was broken. I cannot believe my loved one loved my enemy. It was the worst mixture ever for me. Because of that, i decided to move on from (y/n).

I tried my best to move on from (y/n), but i failed. I just loved her so much. I know it all started as a crush.. but why is it becoming more than a crush? My heart just won't listen to my brain. My brain told me to move on, but my heart.. says the opposite. I was stuck in there. I still dont know whether to move on or keep loving (y/n) even if i'm gonna be hurt. I still dont know until now.

"But don't you like him?"

"No, i don't anymore."

I remembered precisely what we said to each other when i rescued her from taemin, her now boyfriend. (A/n: it's from chapter 12)

Liar. It's a lie. You told me you didnt liked him anymore. You lie. You lied to me. Why? Why did you need to lie to me? Why do you need to play with my heart? You're a liar for lying to me. You've been lying to me all this time. I can't believe you anymore.

That made me hard to trust you now. Because you lied, to me.

One evening while i was crying, i suddenly fainted. Probably due to hunger. My stomach was on pain and it kept on making rumbling noise. I could still hear my mom banging the door, yelling my name when i was in the edge of fainting. "Help!" I cried loudly, trying my best. As my eyes were about to shut, i saw the door banged open and saw my mom with teary eyes and bruised arm, approaching me. And that was when i saw complete darkness.

The next day, i was awake. I was laying on my bed with a cold cloth on my forehead.

"Oh my jungkook, you're awake." Mom suddenly came.

"What happened to your arm, mom?" I asked as i saw a huge bandage around my mom's arm.

"U-uh, i fell from the stairs." My mom said. I totally know she was lying. I knew she was injured because of me. I knew that she was injured because of the door. She banged the door so hardly so it would open up.. to see me, lying on the ground, unconcious.

I suddenly cried seeing my mom hurt. "What happen, dear?" My mom asked, while stroking my hair.

"I-i'm sorry mom," I cried harder. My mom hugged me and joined crying. "I'm happy you're okay, jungkook. I have been so worried about you these past few days."

"I'm okay now, mom. Dont worry about me." I sobbed.

"Promise me you wont do that again, okay?"

"Okay."

I now regret making those stupid depression thing only because of love. Love is stupid. I should have know that it could bring me up more problems. I regret making my mom and dad worried for me.

I regret falling in love with-

"Ouch,"

I suddenly was snapped back to reality when i realised i have bumped into somebody.

"Oops, sorry." I said while trying to see clearly. My eyes had been a little bit blurry due to the tears that has swell up in my eyes.

I gasped as i recognized the familiar figure that has just bumped into me.

"Lee Taemin?!"


Author's note
hello~ its me :D

sorry for the short and very-no-fun chapter :( also for some wrong grammars, and excuse some typos if there is. D:

oH yEA tHIS BOOK IS COMING TO AN END :') OML I CANNOT

OH YEA I CANT BELIEVE I JUST WROTE CRAP. LIKE THE DEPRESSION JUNGKOOK THINGY WAS SO CRAP AND IT WAS JUST UGH

*trying my best to update frequently*

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oh yea comment what do you think will happen to jungkook and taemin? ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

oh yea comment what do you think will happen to jungkook and taemin? ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

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