First Love [EDITING]

15❤ Pt.1 "Girlfriend Huh"

Ahmads POV

Im at home right now chillin, playing the game. Starr she up stairs in her room, she haven't said nothing to me ever since i pushed her witch was 4 weeks ago, She be aight though. I stepped outside to get the mail. I looked at it and Starr have a letter from a college in New York, I opened it and it said she was accepted.

I walked upstairs with a attitude. I opened her door. She had the cover over her face with a big ass hoodie that said 'Fuck Love' on it with some neon green socks, with no shorts on. "STARR"

"What, get the fuck out my room"

"What the fuck is this" I said and through the paper at her.

"None of your damn business" she screamed back at me, it was turning me on though. I walked to her and picked her up. She wrapped her legs around me. "You leaving me Ma" I said kissing her neck. She pushed me loose and backed up.

I admit I haven't been the same person, hitting my bestfriend talking to her crazy. That's not me, Im just going through some shit. I looked her in her eyes but I couldn't focus I keep getting distracted by the bruises on her face. It pisses me off to see that shit, but here I am pushing her.

"Im sorry Starr, Im sorry for hitting you, hurting you. You my best friend I been knowing you since I was 5, most of my life has been spent with you. I can't live without you Starr, but we can't have nothing but a friendship. I don't want a relationship. I love you but, it's not for us. We will never be more than friends. stop being mad at me Iight. I hate it when your ignoring me"

She looked at me with so much hurt in her eyes, it kilt me to see all the pain across her face. I walked to her and wiped the tears that flowed down her face. "I h-have something to tell you" she spoke.

"What is it" it was silent for a long time.

"Never mind" she spoke walking to the window.

"Tell me" I walked behind her and wrapped my arms around her. "It's nothing, nothing important" she smiled weakly. I just shrugged it off.

"When you leaving"

"3 weeks is when my semester starts"

"Ugh. I don't want you to leave me"

"Come with me then"

"I would love to but, my moms down here, I got some shit with Andre and I have my studio set up down here, I will visit though" How I feel right now, kind of like wow she really going to leave me.

"Why you leaving me"

"It's not about you" she looked out the window focused on something. "You right" I pulled her close to me. She looked me in my eyes and I looked her back in hers. I pulled her closer to me the only thing between us was our clothes. She was looking up at me with her gorgeous dark brown eyes. I leaned in and she leaned in until our lips met.

She was hesitant at first put she kissed back. I moved my hand and cuffed her ass , that's when she pushed me off her. "Damn, why we stop"

"Cause I don't want to have sex"

I furrowed my eyes at her, like I didn't Foreal Foreal expect her to have sex with me but I do want her. "Uhh, why" I asked

"Cause, Im tired of being fucked over by you" she bit her bottom lip. I did fuck her over the last time we had sex.

(*Starrs POV*)

Loose myself over a nigga? TUHHH! Been there done that not going there again. Anyways so Im leaving the GA! Fuck yeah! Whoop! I need this get away from Ahmad, from just EVERYTHING. I would be lying if I said I didn't want Ahmad. I want him so bad, but like he said we not getting back together and that's final. WE ARE NEVER EVER EVER... GETTING BACK TOGETHER. *Taylor Swift Voice* Lol