With you- a george shelley fan fiction

chapter 18,. Jess' p.o.v.

Authors note: i just basically want to say please comment and vote haha

Having someone like George healed me. He made the world seem a better place, it always looked nicer when he was by my side. I felt as if i was actually worth something when i was with him, before i knew him a part of me was missing. That part of me was George.

Slowly we both began working again in a card shop, just down the road from Sams. It didnt feel right at first and i was on edge constantly in the first few days. But George was patient, he made sure i never felt over worked or under pressure. Little by little the mental scars of the shooting became less vacant in my mind. The both of us started to put money away and soon enough we were finding our own feet. Sam and his friend, who i now knew as Josh, were always at home to meet us at the end of the working day. Holly had become sort of a big sister to me, she didnt know my secrets and i didnt plan on telling her, but i knew that she would always be there for me. I started to realise that family dont have to share the same blood as you. They must share love. And thats what our little family had.

Me and George arrived back from work at around five o clock that night before having dinner with Holly, Sam and Josh. We spent the night talking about anything that came to mind and soon enough Holly and Josh announced they had to go home. Me and George also decided to go to bed and catch some well earned sleep. I wrapped the quilt around me as i felt Georges arms squeeze my waist. I turned on my side so that our noses were almost touching and smiled at him, he giggled.

"Your so cute when you giggle George." I admitted.

"I dont know when youre not cute Jess." He smiled. "Goodnight."

"Goodnight George." I whispered.

My eyes slowly closed over wgen i felt my phone vibrate, trying not to disturb George i slowly took hold of it and typed in the password. It was a reminder, i opened it straight away and wished i hadnt. I read the words over and over as my heart sank low in my chest. I turned away from George and let a silent tear roll down my cheek. But the silence was soon broken by sobs that i couldnt contain any longer. I sat up waking George, he looked at me as i sat crying my heart out. He switched the light on before cuddling me. He didnt say anything, he didnt need to he held me protectively as i cried, just his presence comforting me, calming me.

"Jess," he began "youre gonna have to tell me whats up." He said, not letting go of me.

"I dont really want to." I admitted.

He kissed my forehead and sighed. "I dont want to force you Jess, but i certainly wont sleep knowing youre upset, so if you tell me i promise i will make it right." He told me.

I took a deep breath, struggling to speak through my tears. "Its just turned midnight and todays the date my mother was taken away from me." I told him.

He squeezed me tight rocking me as i cried. "Jess im so sorry, you dont have to talk about it." He said.

"I would just love her to be with me now, to hold me and tell me everything she knew." I admitted my tears running down my face. George looked down at me.

"She may not be here in physical form Jess and i wish i could change that. But she is never too far away." He put his hand on my chest as he spoke. "She is in your heart and she will watch over you forever." He told me.

I didnt need to reply. The beautiful fact George had just told me didnt require an answer. Instead i buried my head in his chest and hugged him tightly, he entwined our fingers and i looked up at him.

"I know i cant be what a mother is Jess, thats impossible, but i swear i will be the best boyfriend anyone would ever know! That and more!" He promised. I looked into his beautiful eyes as he talked and realised i could get through anything with George.

"I cant thank you enough George, im sorry i got you involved in all this."I said thinking about all my problems that were now his too.

"Jess never ever apolgize to me, if it werent for you, i probably wouldnt be alive right now. Thankyou." He went quieter talking about his past, then brightened up as he lay down pulling me in closer with him. I fell asleep with Georges arms around my waist, to dream of my Mum. I wonderd what georgee was dreaming of.

Theres something in your smile that gives me strength to carry on and theres something in your words that lingers even when youre gone.