With you- a george shelley fan fiction

chapter 21- Georges p.o.v.

Authors Note: hello people :p I just firstly want to say I'm soooo sorry for not writing recently I guess I just gave up on this because I didn't think anyone was reading it and it isn't the best anyway so yeah? But recently I've had some really nice messages and people asking when I'm going to next update, so thanks so much to them people, you know who you are its made me feel much more confident with my writing, I also want to say...

I MET THE BOYS FOR THE FOURTH TIME!!!!!!! It was the best feeling ever and they were the best as usual!! Can't wait to meet them again in january :D. So anyway I know I'm boring you so here's the next chapter! Enjoy don't forget to comment and vote ♥

I woke up with a painful pounding in my head and a huge thirst. I lay thinking about the events that had taken place last night, the alcohol had made most of the night a blur but certain memories were hard to forget. They made me feel even worse. Jess shouting, me cheating, coming home awfully drunk and crying myself to sleep. I hated myself for it. I knew behind all the guilt that the girl had kissed me, but being drunk I kissed back. It killed me to think how upset Jess was, the images of with a look of hatred and pain on her face stayed vacant in my mind. We weren't even together anymore. I ran a hand through my hair and thought about it.I couldn't live without Jess. Without her I was at risk of hitting rock bottom again, that was one thing I dreaded most. I needed Jess with me. I had to turn it all around.

Dressed, showered and prepared I began the long descent down the stairs and the walk into the kitchen, my head still angrily aching. I knew she was in the kitchen, I could hear her voice, it was a little more broken then usual. As I entered I discovered Jess wasn't the only one in the kitchen, she sat with Sam and Josh, they seemed to be comforting her. A vicious firework of jealous exploded in my stomach at the thought of the boys comforting my girlfriend instead of me. But she wasn't my girlfriend anymore. That thought hurt. As soon as she seen me she whispered something to the boys before storming out the room, refusing to make eye contact with me as she exited. I looked over to Josh and Sam who were staring at me akwardly. I gave them a desperate look and they gestured for me to come over. I looked at them, with a blank expression, waiting for them to talk.

Sam began in a hushed whisper, "she hates you for it she really does, after everything she has been through she thought she finally had something with someone, but you always have to let people down George." His voice sounded a little angry as he said the last part and my heart sank at the words.

Sam whispered again, "but she is heartbroken and deep down she knows that the only one who can fix that, is you." My hopes increased a small amount. Josh and Sam both smiled at me, waiting for me to say something. But I didn't, instead I walked out the room with only one person in mind.

I opened the door of the guest room to find a beautiful girl crying at the end of the bed. She looked up and then realised who it was, which made her look back down and continue with her crying. Seeing her like this hurt my heart and I found it hard to fight back the tears I was holding. This was the only person who could make me cry. The silence was broken by a pain filled voice.

"Will you please just go away, the last person I want to see is you." She said, her words stabbing into me like knives.

"Jess please." I begged her, hoping she would give me a chance.

"Don't even try to feel yourself, you know what you've done. Are you happy now? You can add another victim to your list." Her voice grew in volume.

"Jess just-" I began just to be cut off by her.

"Listen George, I had to face the fact that your unfaithful and took advantage of me pretty quickly, I'm sure you can face the fact that were finished." Posion dripped from her words as she began to get up, but I gently pushed her back down.

"Don't say that," I tried to keep calm. The last thing I wanted was to lose my temper.

"Were finished." She repeated it.

I sighed, running a hand through my hair. "Do you know what jess I don't want you, I need you. I don't love you, I adore you. Everyday I learn something new about you and I add it to my mind. I treasure the moments we've spent together and all the times I've made you smile. I know that we both have our problems and mine is how I used to be, its not easy going from using girls to being hopelessly in love with one, but I'm trying my hardest. If I could turn back time to last night I wouldn't have left your side." I took a deep breath. " I know were both upset and I don't like it. So why don't we just completely forget it, please, I would really appreciate it if we could start again. I love you Jess Parker, you believed me when nobody else did and I need you to believe in me now." I finished and looked at her hopefully.

She looked at me, the tears made her eyes shine bright blue. She didn't answer back, instead she wrapped her arms around me and squeezed me tight. I smiled to myself as her small frame became wrapped around me and allowed myself to relax, had I won her over?

"Don't ever scare me like that again." She whispered as she cuddled into my chest.

"I won't." I said, relief washing over me. "Promise."

Your love is where I'm falling but please don't catch me.