James's idea of fun.. is going to a drive in theater.
Once we finished kissing, we got changed once again, and headed off. I honestly thought something else was going to happen, but it's okay. I just want to spend time with him, I don't really mind where.
"I'm so happy to spend time with you baby," He says, as his hand lays on my thigh. It's kind of cold, and I just want to hug him and warm up.
"Me too. I actually talked to your mom about how your dad makes you work too much, she said he'll talk to him about to hours." I say.
"I wish her the best of luck trying to convince him with that. He always says that I need to know exactly what I'm doing, so that when he leaves me the company, I'll have no trouble controlling it."
"Oh. So, our life.. It's going to be the same way its been for the last two months?" I take a deep breath. I really don't want to sound rude, or have another fight with him.
"You don't like living with me?" He questions. I wish I could just jump out of the car and not have to answer any of his questions.
"I do, I just miss you. I need to get used to not seeing you as much as I did before." I sigh.
It's been almost 10 minutes in this car. When the hell are we going to get there?! We both stay silent for a few moments, and he suddenly speaks.
"I have an idea. Well, a suggestion." He says, but doesn't really look at me. His eyes are simply on the road.
"Yeah?" I ask him for his idea.
"Maybe my dad would give me more time with you, if he knew I needed to be around you. Maybe, because you couldn't be able to do things by yourself because of your condition.." He explains but I'm still lost as ever.
"Condition?" I ask, hoping that I'll understand his response.
"Pregnant," He replies.
"Oh," I simply say. I don't know what to say to that honestly, because even though I really do love James, I think he's only saying this because of the fact he's been spending so much time with his father, and those are the things that his father has always nagged him about. "But, we... We haven't even had sex in 2 months.. It'll definitely be strange." I say.
"Yeah, but it was because I didn't have time, once we expand our family.. I'll always have more time."
"Will you, though?" I ask him.
"Yeah, we just.. Have to start." He smiles at me and kisses my hand.
"Start?" I giggle. He makes it all sound so weird to me.
"Yes. Start. I know I've never come inside of you, so it'll be a strange feeling," He explains.
I just stay quiet. How did we go from talking about James's work hours to him... coming inside of me.
Our relationship is obviously a rocky road.
"Okay." I agree. I smile and he smiles back.
"We don't have to start trying right away, maybe we could begin kissing on the first few days?" He asks me. "Whatever makes you most comfortable." Those words make me smile. It still surprises me how distant we've grown in the last 2 months though.
"We'll see," I smile and reach over to him, connecting our lips.
We end up watching a really boring movie, and I fall asleep half way through, so we end up just going home.
James is carrying me, and he lays me on the bed. I was so tired, and he was nice enough to carry me, so I'm thankful. I really hope I didn't weigh too much for him, I hope he didn't get hurt.
