James's POV
The moment she left the apartment, I instantly felt like an asshole. I should have left, not her. But what if my father came here? What if he came and kicked her out, and treated her in a bad way?
You already did that asshole, my subconscious adds.
She also signed the papers. 3 days after the fight she signed them.
I received the news a week ago. I begin to think about how everything would have been different if my father wouldn't be the judgmental asshole that he is.
I still kept my mouth shut and ran her out, so it's hard to sleep at night with the guilt from all of that.
It's all my fucking fault for being so goddamn stubborn.
The look on her face broke my heart, even more than it already was.
I laid in tears in bed all of those days. I've been making myself lunch and I usually burn the food, which reminds me of all those times on the island. How I burned the food on the day we were going to make love for the first time.
I feel like I'm going crazy as I haven't heard her voice in over a week.
I haven't smelled her scent, the one she leaves in her clothes after a long day of putting up with me.
And god, her laugh. But not her 'fake, that i'm only doing to be polite laugh' that she does in front of other people. Her real one, the one that usually ends with a snort.
It's all been haunting me, and I just want to disappear.
I have dreams of her laying next to me, whispering that she loves me. But I wake up, and the only thing there is her pillow. It still smells like her.
My father told me some days ago that I'm getting married to that Andrea chick. I had no energy in me to fight with him but I am definitely not going to show up at the altar.
I begin thinking about how shitty I've treated Lina and that I should've been a better husband. I should've treated her much better than what I have been treating her lately.
I begin thinking of her offer to run away with me. I have enough money to last a few months without a job, until I can find one. What if she doesn't want to anymore though?
I shake my head. Why am I thinking about this?
Because you want to be with her dumbass, my subconscious mocks me.
My subconscious is killing me.
I soon find myself grabbing my car keys and heading out. I'm gonna go find her.
Lina's POV
It's been 10 days.
I've decided to stop fooling myself, and that no matter what I do, he's not going to come back to me.
So I signed the papers. They let me keep the ring, so I never take it off. Even though we're not together on a piece of paper, we are in my heart.
He hasn't tried to contact me and it really hurts my feelings but I've stopped even getting excited when I hear the phone ring because I already know it's not going to be him.
I remember the day I got back from the apartment, after him basically kicking me out, I locked myself in my room and cried the whole day. It was like that for most of the week, and just two days ago I started eating again. Really eating, not just getting forced to swallow those horrible crackers Mrs. Reynolds gave me.
Yesterday the invitations arrived, he's getting married in a week and a half.
Andrea barely comes here, and that makes me so happy. Her mom doesn't seem to mind that Andrea isn't around much, and that relieves me. I don't want Mrs. Reynolds inviting her. Andrea ruined my life.
