Forbidden By All

The Smell of Fear

Bri listened very carefully to what Bryan was saying. Her tiny little brown eyes never stopped excreting tears as he spoke, there was no way that she would possibly be able to calm down. There were a million thoughts running through her head. The man she..cheated on Bryan with was literally right outside the door right now, probably scared out of his mind for what could be going on in here. Not to mention the fact that her one and only son is having to be assisted in order to breathe, Bri's career is seemingly coming to an end, her husband is demolished over this and there is practically nothing going right. The career thing is something that Bri has grown used to over the years. Although it doesn't hurt any less knowing that people can't stand her, whether it be her wrestling style, her character, her acting, or even song. It never stung any less. But this was the least of her concerns, right now she was just trying to process what Bryan was in the middle of telling her, she almost couldn't believe it, how is this possible? Blake is so young, it cannot be a common thing, so does that make Blake extremely lucky? Or unlucky..Bri cared not for this argument that was raging inside of her mind. She was petrified that someday she wouldn't be looking in there to see him barely alive, but more on the, not so alive part. As Bryan's exclamation came closer to it's finale, Bri batted her extremely sore eyes open and closed several times, in an effort to squirt out some more tears, she accepted a long time ago that there was no stopping the crying, just accept it and deal with it as it came to her. Bryan reached over and grabbed Bri's hand, gently taking it into his own, "And that's basically what happened when I found him on the floor..So I rushed him here, and they told me all of that garbage..I'm so sorry I couldn't call you sooner, Brianna I just couldn't find the seconds to do it." Bryan seemed extremely sincere in his apology, Bri didn't mind that he was a little late getting a hold of her, mainly due to the fact that he was being the amazing father that he is and took care of him as quickly as possible. The room felt eerily cold and reeked of fear, nothing but pure and unrivaled fear.

Bri had to think long and hard about it, literally taking several minutes to gather her thoughts inside of her head before she could intelligently think of a thing to say to Bryan. This was obscene, the fact that this was..actually now that he finished, a common thing in children, Bri was dumbfounded by that fact. Of course being that there are two types of heart murmurs in children, Blake was diagnosed with a structural issue, the more..serious type of disease. This cause the fainting that Bryan had walked in on earlier in the evening. "S-So..this is something that can be fixed? W-We can do something about this, right?" Bri was so confused about all of this medical mumbo-jumbo, it made exactly no sense to her. To put it in familiar terms, it was like learning how to speak Chinese. Bryan shrugged his shoulders and looked down at Bri's hands, they were rapidly shaking even though he had one held tight in his own, "They don't know yet. It's far too early to tell something like that if surgery is needed or not. They say that it can't really be fatal, considering how we found it so early..But it can be an issue if it decides to get worse on us. Hence, why he's hooked up to all of this stuff.." Bri looked up immediately at him and had fire in her eyes, how can the doctors know..anything then this early in what they found? "Then why is he hooked up to that breathing..thing." Bryan sighed quietly and looked down now, "Because, Bri. When Blake fainted, he was so scared that his heart stopped..The shock almost killed him from the sensation that he felt and it just..stopped."

Was Bryan saying now that Blake had a heart attack too? What if he hadn't been there to find him on the floor like that? What would this conversation be like if Bryan was five minutes later than he actually was? The thoughts horrified Bri to no end and there was no way in hell that she would be able to soon forget them. Josh, whom still sat on the floor, was texting his dad of all people, who was surprisingly still awake due to a weird lucky string of events for him. He was instructing him to tread carefully for more than one reason. First being that Bri is a married 'goddamn' woman, and this was 'a hundred and ninety seven degrees of messed up'. The second thing, is that this could be a make or break moment for their relationship, Bri is fragile, Blake is clearly what matters most in her life. Yes, Josh matters, yes Bryan matters, Nikki, her mom, her dad but Blake? Blake is her son, he is what's most important inside her heart and mind. The third thing he advised his son to do, was just 'Follow your heart', bad timing to use the term heart there Mister Fatu, but nevertheless, he meant that if Bri was what his heart was striving for and craved? Go for it, and never be denied until your heart is satisfied. Bri's entire body shook as more dark thoughts of what could have been her son's untimely demise crept inside of her head and latched on like hooks. She looked at the ceiling and cursed god in her head, how could god let something of this nature happen to one who has done nothing wrong in the world? How could god let something like this happen to someone who doesn't even know how to commit an ill deed..Bri scampered for her phone once she heard it ring twice, and lo and behold it was her sister. The one person Bri actually wanted to talk to about this..She answered her phone after she took a giant sniffle in, attempting to shield the fact that she just cried more tonight than she has in..probably over fifteen years.