Joy ride

Chapter 10

|Myla|

"Girl he what?"

"Ughhh Lemy u heard me the first time stop itttt" I whined on the phone with lemy. I was telling her that lil thing August did to me and it caused me to be confused and frustrated because we are supposed to be friends and friends only I just can't help myself around him.

"Well was it good?"

"It was amazinnnng" I smiled

"Mhm be careful Myla August is really not who you think he is. I don't want you to get hurt."

I sighed. "Yea you're right I understand kinda but I'll talk to you later" I said hanging up before she could say anything else.

I called August a few times today but he didn't answer. I was starting to feel dumb and upset. How does this man have me in my feelings and we aren't even together? I sighed laying back on my bed looking up at the ceiling. I got bored and pulled my phone out getting on my instagram. I don't know why but I searched August name up and clicked on his profile seeing he posted a picture with Priscilla 5 minutes ago and the caption read ...

"Vacation wit my lah lady😍👅💦"

They were on the beach together and Priscilla was in a 2 piece bathing suit with her ass out and August was all over her.

Why am I even feeling upset about this right now we're just friends nothin more...I have to remember that. I got off of Instagram sitting my phone next to me and went back to day dreaming looking at the ceiling.

Sometimes I don't know what's wrong with me. Im a very deep thinker so most of the time im thinking. I have a really hard time letting people in. I make people feel like they know me when in reality they don't. I feel like no one knows me like I know myself , no one knows what's best for me but myself.

At times I question god and I pray to God but other times I doubt if he's really real...the same question flows through my mind 24/7 if you can't see it does it mean it is not real? That's how I feel at times toward god. I can't see you so how can I know you're real? Sometimes the signs people say God shows them im too blind to see the ones he gives me on my own.

I snapped out of my thoughts when my doorbell rang. Who could possibly be at my door right now August is away with his girlfriend so it can't be him.

I opened the door seeing no one there. I started to get scared so I hurried up and shut it , locking it before something crazier happened. I looked out the window just to double check and there was nothin. Maybe it was just the wind..I said to make myself feel better.

I quickly jogged back up the steps and got into bed getting comfy, guess I'll take a nap since I have nothin else to do.