Joy ride

Chapter 26

|Myla|

After my miscarriage I've been trying to get myself together. I can't keep moping around all day long but this shit just hurts. I could've had a little baby girl or baby boy in this world and just to think he / she had to go like that breaks my heart.

I didn't get to tell mama Sheila about what happened but August told her. After that night me and him spent together I decided we should just give eachother a break all of this is too over whelming. He thinks we should see a therapist but I'm not really sure I'm thinking about it. Maybe me and August having some time apart will actually help things because right now I just wanna be all alone...I need to find myself.

I stared at myself through the mirror in my bathroom as I put my hair up into a bun. I'm going for a little walk alone and then I'm gonna go see my mom, she's the only person I actually wanna see right now.

After fixing myself I grabbed all my things and left getting inside my car , heading into the direction of the park that was 15 minutes away. When I pulled up to the park I found a parking spot and got out my car slowly starting to walk around as I popped my earphones in.

My eyes started to water as I watched the little kids run around and scream in excitement. Maybe this wasn't the best place for me to come. I blinked away my tears and tuned into my music as I walked peacefully enjoying the breeze.

"Myla!!" I heard someone calling my name. I turned around to see lyric (quan's sister) across the street with a little girl. It looked as if she was taking her to the park.

I watched as she made her way over to me.

"Heyyy I knew that was you" she smiled pulling me into a hug.

"Hey girly" I weakly smiled

"What you doing here?" She asked

"Just walking around nothin major , who's this little cutie you have with you?" I smiled

"Tesha" the little girl spoke up.

"Nice to meet you Tesha you're beautiful" I said to her. She looked at me and smiled while she put her finger in her mouth.

"What do you say?" Lyric said to her.

"Thank youuu" she said and I giggled.

"Well I'll see you around lyric don't be a stranger boo" I said turning on my heels and walking away.

"Ok!" She hollered out to me.

After a hour of walking . I made it back to my car exhausted. Once I got in I pulled off and made my way to my moms house. When I pulled up I got out putting my key into the door and walking inside seeing both my mom and dad on the couch kissing.

"What is going on dad" I said causing them to jump.

"Oh my Myla princess it was all your mother I came over here to talk about you and s-she just started kissing me."

"Don't u lie on mez u azzhole " my mom said rolling her eyes.

I giggled. "I won't tell Melissa dad, you guys are a mess."

"What's been up with you sweetie we haven't heard from you, you don't look pregnant anymore are you ok?" My dad asked concerned

"I uhm lost the baby"

"Oh meee lawd priyaaaaa" my mom cried. I watched as she cried and my father sat silently. I had no more tears left to cry I was all cried out.

"How you holding up?" My dad asked

"I'm living I guess everything happens for a reason" I sighed.

My dad stood up and pulled me into a hug. I honestly needed one of those.

I stayed at my moms house for about 2 hours venting to them both and they both think me and August should go to counseling. My dad didn't meet August yet but he's still supportive of my decisions and who I choose to be with.

"I'm leaving guys" I said standing up and grabbing my things. Once they said their goodbyes I left making my way back home.

When I got home I pulled up seeing August car parked out front I swear he doesn't listen we are supposed to be on a break from eachother. I'm not even gonna lie though I was missing him today. I got out my car and walked up to my door , putting the key in and walking inside.

I saw August sprawled out on the couch sleep with just boxers on and a movie he must've turned on was still playing. I picked up the remote and turned the tv off walking upstairs.

I ran myself a nice warm bubble bath. Once it was all filled up, I stripped out of my clothes and stepped in. I sighed in relaxation as the warm water loosened my muscles. This was well needed. I laid back and closed my eyes enjoying this while I can.

A few minutes later I felt a presence in front of me and I wasn't scared because I knew it was August. He always had this effect on me. I kept my eyes closed as I felt his eyes burning a hole into my skin.

"Lift up" he said. I did as he told and he stepped in sitting down in the tub behind me. I laid back on his chest as his hands softly rubbed up and down my skin.

"What were you doing here?" I asked softly

"I missed you, I was thinking about ya all day. I just wanna be with you right now please." He said. I sat silent not saying anything.

"If you don't want me hea I-"

I cut him off shutting him up with a kiss. He kissed me back and it was one of those passionate ones that both of us needed.

"I love you so much" I blurted out.

"I love you more baybeh , let me make you feel good tonight. I want you ta have my babies Myla every single last one of em. Can we make babies ta night?" He said in a husky voice and I nodded feeling my heart skip a beat.