Between Love and Hate (Julian Casablancas fanfic)

Before tour

We left to go to a restaurant and we sat down ordering our food. It was old-timey themed so there were magazines and newspapers on the table, on the front cover of one of them I saw us from the other night. "Take a look at this" I said showing it to Julian and he chuckled, I read the heading and it said 'Julian Casablancas' new lover?!' So I started to read it and most of it was bullshit saying I was using him or shit like that and there were pictures of us smiling leaving into a cab, and can I say that, that was a really good picture. I finished reading it and threw it beneath the rest of things as they came with our food. I ate my food silently as it was awkward between us, I took two of his fries and made them look like walrus teeth on me so he started laughing and did the same. He took his out and ate them while shaking his head chuckling so I giggled

"You're so adorable" he laughed so I gave him a cheeky grin

"I know" I said still smiling

"Oh now you agree with me" he laughed and I kissed him

"So where are you going to first?" I asked

"Well we go to L.A and then other places in the U.S then we go to Europe to tour" he explained and I nodded my head

"Don't go too crazy" I laughed and he chuckled// we finished our food and decided to head back home, we got a cab because the paparazzi were trying to follow us home. Once we got there we snuggled with each other trying to take in every moment till the cruel universe pulls us apart.
"Yo Cass I made lasagna" Joana said as she popped her head out of the kitchen so I quickly shot my head up "oh but you just ate oops" she said in a sarcastic tone

"bitch I will fight you for that lasagna, you know I love lasagna" I said standing up
"as do I" she smirked then grabbed the whole container of lasagna and bit into it so I chase her and she fell but I saved the lasagna on time, I placed it on the little counter and started tackling her. We ended up laughing on the ground, crying at our own stupidity. I sat back up and saw Julian had finished the lasagna

"you fucking skank ass fucking bitch ass hoe, JULIAN THAT WAS MY LASAGNA YOU BABOSO!" I yelled tackling him with tickles since he was ticklish. He started crying from the pain of laughing so much and I ended it by giving a small kiss. Albert came inside without knocking and just saw me sitting on Julian's lap while he was clutching his stomach crying and Joana laying on the floor eating the crumbs of what was left of the lasagna. I pretend to have something behind my back then brought my hands forward and pointed them in a gun shape to Albert "put your hands up bitch" I laughed then rolled off of Julian falling onto the floor face first, Albert laughed in confusion "I can't even explain it to be honest" I chuckled standing up. Joana went over to Albert and gave him a piece and he ate it.

"That was on the floor by the way!" Joana laughed as Albert's face went to pure terror

"WHAT THE FUCK JOANA!" He yelled gagging, so she pulled him into a kiss then ran to the bathroom to throw up and Joana just stayed laughing her ass off

"He's alway been a neat freak" Julian chuckled standing up draping his arm around my shoulder so I smiled. Albert came back wiping his mouth and glaring at Joana but he couldn't stay mad for long at her so he rolled his eyes and gave her a kiss. "way to spend a last day" Julian said and I became gloomy as the thought of all of them leaving made me sad. Julian rested his forehead on top of him and looked me in my eyes "hey look I know this is gonna be hard but we can power through this, I love you" he said giving me a big kiss so I smiled into it knowing how he seemed like a dick before but he is really sweet now. It quickly turned into a passionate kiss and we started making out, we heard coughing so I broke the kiss and saw Nick had walked in with the rest and Joana and Albert were smirking at me so I blushed extremely hard stratching the back of my neck.

"Wait why the fuck do you guys just come in my house without knocking you punks" I said with a raised eyebrow

"Technically it's not your house because you are renting this apartment" Nick said emphasizing the word apartment knowing I said house when it's not a house

"Shut up vaseline boy" I said flipping him off and he scoffed at me as the rest laughed.

"Yah I'm vaseline every girl wants to rub me all over them" he smirked so I blushed then thought of something

"Yah but guys also can use it to lube themselves up" I smirked so he glared at me "DICK VASELINE!" I cried "That's your new name for now on Dick Vaseline"

"You fucking.." He glared so I stuck my tongue out at him picking up the container putting it in the sink then coming back to see they have helped themselves out to everything so I rolled my eyes. Nick saw one of my electric guitars in the corner and picked it up playing Last Nite not plugged in. I picked up my other one and played Albert's part as they gawked at my playing skills because I played his parts perfectly even the solo. "what. how the fuck. what?!" Nick said baffled

"Dude playing instruments is in my blood man, my grandpas were composers and played instruments. I think I get most of my musical talents from them in all honesty." I said placing my guitar back on the rack.

"You can play it as good as me!" Albert said still astonished at how I played it so well

"tells you how much of a good guitarist you really are" I said sassily and the rested 'ooohed' and he flipped me off so I blew him a kiss and he pretended to catch it then directed it towards his pelvic area so I glared at him and shook my head rolling my eyes. I looked to Fab who has looked sad since he had walked in "hey Fab what's wrong?" I asked concerned and he put on a small smile

"ahh it's nothing you don't have the worry Cass" he said shrugging it off so I looked at him

"you sure?" and he nodded his head "well if you need someone to talk to just remember I'm here for you, what are friends for" I chuckled

"to suck each others dicks!" yelled Julian so I threw a pillow at him

"But anyways I will always be there for you Fab" I said hugging him tightly, he kind of hesitated but ended up wrapping his arms around me, hugging me back. Nick was playing random chords on my guitar and he couldn't find a next chord "play Fm7" I said and he gave me a smug look like it wasn't going to work so I nodded my head for him to try it so he did and I gave him a smug look back as it did work so he rolled his eyes and kept on playing. Julian sat me on his lap and kissed my shoulder so I giggled

"Aw look at you two love birds" Albert said sitting on my lap

"Albert you're crushing me get off" I laughed pushing his arm "woah okay you have muscles" I chuckled

"Jules you're girlfriend is hitting on me" he said wiggling his eyebrows and I rolled my eyes punching him

"Who said that I was attracted big arms huh" I smirked and he put his hands up in defense and got off me so Julian kissed my cheek then my lips so I smiled into it. I laid my head on his chest and he kissed the top of my head.

"You guys doing couply stuff makes me feel lonely thanks guys" Nick pretended to be sad

"Don't worry Nick you aren't lonely, you have Julian here" I laughed and Julian blew him a kiss. I grabbed his hand looked at his veins all over his hands "I love your hands" I said and he laced his fingers with mine and kissed my hand. God this boy makes me go crazy, I love him so much.// Several hours had pass of us all hanging out and they guys decided we should go to their place. They had put on a movie so me and Julian were cuddling and so were Albert and Joana, how cute. Nikolai ordered pizza so he brought it out to where everyone was and we ate. After a while Julian and I decided we were heading to bed, I got undressed and snuggled next to him so he drew random shapes on my back while softly kissing my forehead.

"I love you so much, I don't want to leave Cass" he said squeezing me so I twirled his hair around my finger looking him in the eyes

"I love you so much, I don't want to leave Cass" he said squeezing me so I twirled his hair around my finger looking him in the eyes "I know Jules but I mean you'll go around and have fun with your friends, now let's sleep you dork" I giggled giving him a small peck and I dug my face in his chest and soon we fell asleep.

~~~SO SO SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG TO WRITE IVE HAD THIS FOR LIKE 5 DAYS BUT I COULDNT THINK OF ANYTHING AND ITS LIKE A FILLER CHAPTER BUT IM GONNA WORK ON THE NEXT CHAPTER RN BECAUSE I ALREADY KNOW WHAT I WANT TO DO :D~~~