Different state, new friends . . . same bullshit!
There's always somebody lurking in the background, somebody who you never thought you'll see again, but even though all is forgivin' nobody truly forgets.
Chyna can never seem to escape tragic situat...
"Lies and secrets, they are like a cancer in the soul. They eat away what is good and leave only destruction behind." - Cassandra Clare
Someone once told me to "let go of the past and the past will let go of you." But how true is that. If I didn't believe anything that's one of the things I won't believe. It jut seems like everything in my past or anything that I've tried to get over just won't let me be great. I've become a new person. I've done things right this time. I've asked for forgiveness for the things I've also done but why am I still being thrown out to the wolves when it comes to shit I did years ago.
Maybe I didn't pray hard enough and karma was just now catching up to me. Or maybe God just wasn't up to answering any of those prayers right now so show me a lesson. Whatever it is I just hope to get it over with so I can l
"Do as I said and strip for me." Blaze demanded as I stood in front of him in the spare bedroom. The same bedroom Tahj and I decided to turn into a nursery before Blaze popped up to occupy it.
I didn't move.
"Don't be scared now Chyna. Its not like I ain't seen you half naked anyway. You wasn't scared when you decided to drug me and leave with my money was you, now strip." He yelled then took the cigarette from his mouth and sat it on the ash tray.
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The room became dead silent, and I'm sure he could hear the sound of my heart trying to beat through my chest. I slowly reached up and pulled my shirt over my head, silently cursing myself for choosing not to wear a damn bra today because I could have still had more time to stall.
After my shirt was removed I stood in nothing but my jeans as I watched his eyes seductively burn into my flesh.
"Wait, come here right quick," he said, holding his hands out for me.
"This can't happen Blaze, Tahj will be home soon." I said stepping back from him.
"Do it look like I give a fuck." He said irritated. He grabbed forward and took hold of my hand pulling me near him, making me stand directly in front of his face.
He places his semi cold hands on both sides of my waist and leaned up and kissed both of my breast. He then went on to suck on my right nipple before he moved to the next one.
Tears fell down my face as I watched him. He was violating me and there was nothing I could do to stop this. I could try to fight him but I was scared of him beating me up and fearful of losing my child in that altercation.
"Alright," he said once he released one of my nipples from his mouth, then pushed me back a little. "I just wanted to do that. Continue," he said referring to me stripping away the rest of my clothes.
I stepped more away from him and started to unbuckle my jeans. Once I stepped out of them he nodded his head for me to take off my panties.
"Turn around," he said after I had removed all of my clothing and he had thoroughly taken in the front of my body. I took a deep breath and slowly turned around for him. "Fuckin' beautiful," I heard him say in awe. "No wonder my brother so in love with yo trifling ass." He instructed me to turn back around and walk back over to him.
