Chyna Doll 2 - Cant Escape The Past

C H A P T E R - 9

"Sometimes the questions are complicated and the answers are simple." - Dr. Seuss

Part 1

"So are we going to talk about this?" Tahj said watching me wash dishes. I had been moving around our apartment for the last two hours, since he's been home trying to avoid him by doing pointless things. I was afraid if I say something to him or even give him enough eye contact then he would pick up on my mood instantly and just bring me into spilling out everything.

Instead of answering his question I sat the last dish in the dish drainer and dried my hands off and tried to walk right pass him but he quickly caught my arm and pinned me against the counter using his body as a barrier.

"Chy, I know you hear me, you walking around here ignoring me will not change shit, so we gone talk about this shit like adults now and stop all the games."

"What do you want me to say Tahj?"

"It's not what I want you to say it's what you feel like you need to say." He responded looking me right in the eyes, something I didn't want him to do. I know once that eye connection was there he could instantly see the world of emotions my eyes held.

Not only was I sad, I was also hurt and angry. None of those emotions really tied to him in a way, I was just ashamed that I let this all catch up to me with all the warning signs I chose to ignore.

I broke eye contact and just stared blankly at nothing in particular, which I could tell was pissing him off because he grabbed my chin making me focus my attention on him.

"This isn't just about Blaze moving in is it?" He questioned.

"Why you say that?"

"Because I know you Chyna. So what is it?"

I hesitated a little bit and lost eye contact only for him to make me focus my attention back on him. I couldn't just up and say it because all the what if's started playing over in my head again. Making me scared to even open my mouth to say what I needed to say.

"I'm fine," I lied.

"You're not, but I'm not gonna pressure you into tellin' me when you not ready. Just remember I'm not me without you, so if you're doubting anything there's nothing to doubt. I'm always here no matter what."

I stared at him for a few minutes more then nodded my head. He pulled me into him and kissed my forehead. I knew he wanted more from me right now but I wasn't ready and this was all I could give him at this moment.

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"Dinner is ready." I nonchalantly said as I walked into the living letting Tahj and blaze know. They both nodded their heads so I turned around and went to fix my plate. I piled my plate up with curry chicken, rice and asparagus. Grabbed my cup of lemonade and walked past Tahj and Blaze into the dinning room.

"Damn Chyna, I hope you eat all that food." Blaze laughed as he sat down across from me. Instead of replying to him I just rolled my eyes and continued to eat.

"She better, she eating for two now." Tahj interjected smiling all hard now sitting next to me.

"Baby?" Blaze asked. "Y'all having a baby?"