Chyna Doll 2 - Cant Escape The Past

C H A P T E R - 13

"Sometimes you have to kind of die inside in order to rise from your own ashes and believe in yourself and love yourself to become a new person." - Gerard Way

1 month later . .

Chyna

Tahj - (11:31am): What did Dr. Morrison say before you left?

Me - (11:34am): my stress levels are up.

Instead of him replying back like I thought he would my phone starting vibrating in my hand with his name across the screen. I pressed the answer icon and before I could say hello he was going off on me.

"Chyna I swear on everything if you lose my baby--"

"Maybe if you didn't leave I wouldn't be in this situation." I mumbled into the phone feeling myself get sad about the shit that had transpired in the last month.

"I can't be around you right now, just make sure you stop stressing and do everything the doctor told you to. I'll call you later on though." He replied then hung up before I could respond to him or say anything for that matter.

The same day I came clean to Tahj about everything that happened dealing with my past and how I knew his brother things just went left. All that shit about him sticking around and not leaving me went out the window as soon as I revealed to him the real reason I was bleeding the day of our doctors appointment. I knew once I told him everything that happened this shit would happen. Which is the main reason I didn't wanna say anything in the first place. Cause now look where its gotten me.

He left, and not only did he leave but the only time he talks to me is if its about the baby other than that we have no communication at all. All of this was getting to me and I didn't know how long I could handle everything before I have a major breakdown. All I needed from him was to keep his word and be there for me, to take a walk in my shoes and understand why I did what I did; but he couldn't even do that. Instead he left.

"Mommy's gonna get better for you, I promise." I whispered looking down and rubbing my hands across my now fourteen week old belly. I knew me stressing was stressing my baby out and could really hurt him or her in the long run. So from now on and this day forward I was gonna try to forget about everything that happened and just focus on keeping myself up and stress free so my baby could have a chance. That's the least I could do.

"Chyna?" I heard my name being called followed by two knocks before the door opened.

"Oh my God thank you I was in here about to starve." I smiled and sat up from my laying position to reach for the tray of food.

"I know its been a lot going on but your doctor cleared you of the bed rest so you could of came down to get your own food."

"I know, I'm just tryna take advantage of y'all until I'm kicked to the curve and my baby gets all of the attention." I laughed twirling the pasta around the fork before I brought it to my mouth.

"You'll always be our baby Chyna but now you're our baby with a baby." My mama replied sitting the cup of juice on the nightstand next to the bed.

It was good being back home, even though I wouldn't be here for long I was happy that I was back here with my parents. Things for us had gotten way better and although they had to find out about me being pregnant because I got really hysterical after Tahj left and needed them. They ended up coming and taking me back with them and I've been here for a week now. I was only here for fall break then it was back to Sc, which I was dreading because I didn't know what was going on. I haven't seen Blaze since the night that shit happened and that I was glad for but also I didn't know what Tahj was gonna do about that situation, that he claimed he was gonna take care of.