Keep On Dreaming.

Toys In The Attic

The results were in from last night's show, and as usual Lauren, Scotty and I were in the top 3, with me in the number 1 spot. I guess everyone who was watching felt my electricity as well. I was honestly so blessed I couldn't begin to describe how happy I was. 

"Congratulations, Baby." Steven smiled and kissed me. We were sitting on the couch in the mansion, watching the recap of Idol from the previous night, and munching on some goodies. 

"I honestly hated not talking to you all week. I couldn't even begin to tell you about the anxiety attacks I've had without you here." I took a big bite out of a giant strawberry. 

Steven turned and looked at me with a pained expression.
"Mia.. You promised you'd call if you had one. Did you have a bad dream too?"

"Yeah," I muttered. "But I was fine, all I had to do was meditate and I calmed down instantly." 

"Okay. as long as you're okay." He kissed me. "Mmmm, you taste like strawberries." He kissed me again.

"Ew, guys, get a room." Lauren Alaina and Scotty walked into the room and plopped onto the other couch, next to us.

"No, don't tell him that! He'll wisk me away to some bedroom, and I'm actually quite comfy here." I giggled. "And I should be saying the same to you cuties." They blushed and smiled at each other. 

Just then, Lauren and Joe came in, carrying Beth, and sat down on the otherside of Steven and I.

"Can I see my Goddaughter, since you've been hiding her from me, for so long?" I teased

"Why of course, It's not like she want's to be with her mother or father anyway." Lauren chuckled and rolled her eyes, handing Beth to me. Steven cuddled closer to me, so we could both play with her.

Beth just sat on my lap and drummed little beats on my leg, so I decided to sing to her.
"Did you know you're daddy's a big famous musician?" I kissed little Beth's nose, and sang softly to her.

"I love to look into your big hazel-green eyes
They talk to me and seem to hypnotize
They say the things nobody dares to say
And I'm not about to let you fly away

I love you cause your deuces are wild
Like a double shot of love is so fine
I've been lovin' you since you were a child, girl
Cause you and me is two of a kind."
I hugged her and she climbed up my shoulder and hugged my neck and actually started humming the song I was just singing. 
Joe started to tear up a little bit and I knew he was incredibly proud of his baby girl.

"Hold her for a minute, Steven," I said as I handed Beth to him, and got up from the couch. "I've got an Idea." I grinned as I ran up the stairs and into my room.

I grabbed my guitar and came back down to the couch. When I sat down, I grabbed Beth from Steven and put her in between me and the guitar. I held her little hands, and pressed a few of her fingers on the strings, and held her other hand as I strummed the guitar. 
I began talking to her in a baby voice 
"If you wanna grow up to be just like daddy, you're gonna need a lot of practice, cause he's very good. Not as good as your Aunt Mia, of course, but he's very good." I kissed the top of thick brown curly hair. "Maybe, one day, you'll be better than he is, and you can beat him at playing guitar then, too."
Beth looked like she was seriously having fun, so I continued strumming the guitar while holding her hands. 

Joe whipped out his phone, and took a picture of us, and then I handed Beth to him, and then my guitar, so he could try to teach her. 
I did the same as Joe, and took a picture. This would be great for their family album, because I know Lauren, she's probably dying to make one. 
Seeing Joe playing the guitar with his 8 month old daughter brought tears to my eyes. I knew Steven wanted to have kids, and one day, maybe I did too, but I wasn't ready, and it broke my heart that I couldn't give Steven what he wanted. 

Sometimes It sucks being with your soul mate, because he or she can often sense a shift in your emotions, so it's like Steven knew what I was thinking. He put an arm around my waist and slid me close to him. "Don't worry, love. I'll be ready, when you are." He whispered in my ear and then kissed my cheek.
I turned to face him, and whispered back to him. "I love you." I said right before I kissed his lips.