Phil and I are lying on the couch, facing each other and playing Mario Kart with Nintendo. Our legs touch each other and God. Okay, it's weird but I can't stop thinking about how I am in love with my best friend.
"You have become good at this", he snorts, "Dan.. I have to tell you something"
"Modestly. Tell me"
"Tomorrow I go out with Sarah"
Ugh. I feel a strange feeling in my stomach, jealousy?
"I'm happy for you, I mean, you too are so cute, I can't wait", I say in one breath.
"Are you okay?"
"Totally"
"That was not what I wanted to tell you", he says pausing the game.
"And what?"
"I'm going to kiss her"
"Yes, but what do I do?"
"I've never kissed", he says and looks into my eyes looking away right after.
How is it possible? I mean, he's a lovely guy. He has lips that look so soft and kissable.
"Dan, are you listening?"
I was lost in my thought again.
"Yes"
"Teach me?"
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"Dan, you should say something, don't make me feel embarrassed"
"Should I teach you? Really?"
"Will not you? I mean, you're gay, you'd like it, or not?"
I bite my lip, "You're my best friend, Phil, I don't feel anything for you, I would not like it in that way"
"Okay, sorry", he says and gets back to his place, continuing to play.
"But I could teach you"
He smiles and hugs me, "Thank you"
"Get up", I say and I close the door, "Wait, I have to teach you a simple or more complicated kiss?"
"Teach me all"
Jesus Christ
I bite my lip, "Okay, put me a hand behind my back, ah, pretend that I'm Sarah"
"I'll try", he says and puts a hand behind. Shit. Then I softly place my lips on him, taking away soon after.
"I wasn't ready", he chuckles.
"Sorry", I say and I bite my lip, again. I have a strong desire to spread it on this bed and kiss him all over.
He moistens the lips and, "Then?"
"Kiss me, I'll tell you how you're gone"
"Okay", he says, and approaches, "Tongue?"
"I would say yes"
He nods and starts to kiss me slowly at first, then more passionately. I feel that his hands are behind my back, he hold me tight. Also mine are my behind him, and I cling to his shirt, as we continue to kiss. He sticks his tongue, and start to move even my in sync.
We detach a few seconds later, both out of breath.
"Oh Jesus you're so good", I whispers.
"Excuse me?"
"I mean, you're fine"
"Suggestions?", he says and smiles.
"Use less language and more lips if you don't want to fill her with saliva", I chuckle still watching his lips.
"Thanks Dan, that was.. nice", he says and looks at the floor.
"Yeah well, I liked it", I say honestly, fuck if I liked it, it was the most beautiful kiss I have ever given.
He comes over and gives me a kiss on the cheek this time, "I'm glad you're my best friend"
"Me too"
"I love you", he says. I hate these words because I know that they are just a sign of friendship.
"I love you too", more than you can ever imagine.
