"just try to calm yourself dan," chris says and helps him but dan wants to walk alone and he fails, he decides to sits on the ground because he's coughing really hard and he can't breathe.
"what's happening?" one of the classmates asks.
"he's okay, just leave him some fresh air!" chris says and the teacher departs all the people around him. "c'mon dan"
tears stream down his face and he feels his throat blocked.
"do you want a glass of water?" a teacher asks.
"no," chris answers.
"and what should we do?" she raises a brow.
"i'll help him," he adds.
the destiny wants phil to walk through the hallway, he notices some confusion and he approaches, then he sees dan on the ground and he gets on his knees.
"oh my god, what's happening?" he asks.
"you're the last person who should see him now, phil," chris blurts knowing the situation.
"shut up," he says and takes dan's hand. "hey, dan"
"what the hell? go away!"
"why doesn't he talk?" he asks. "and what happened?"
"phil," dan whispers.
"see? he wants to see me, leave us alone," he says.
"do something wrong and i'll kill you"
"phil," dan says again and chris gets up, going away.
"are you okay?" he asks and dan shakes his head. "i'm here"
"why did you leave me?" he asks and cries more.
"ssh, don't cry and calm yourself," he smiles and wipes his tears with his thumbs, then he places a hand on his chest. "breathe, in and out"
"no phil," he mutters. "i can't"
"you can, i'm here"
"you left me, you're going to leave me again. you always leave me"
"no, i'll not leave you now. i swear to god," he says and hugs him. "okay?"
"no"
phil gets off the hug and places his lips on dan's. his are salty because of the tears but they're still too good, and phil loves them.
"believe me now?"
"no," he cries out and hugs him.
"it's okay, i'm here. i'm here," he whispers and caresses his back. "are you feeling better?"
"no," he whispers.
"don't worry, i'm here now"
"you're going to leave me"
"jesus christ dan, i'm not," he giggles and goes away. "i love you"
"i.." he whispers and the other boy kisses his forehead.
"okay bear?"
"i don't know," he mumbles. he still cries but his breath is regular and this makes him feel better.
"if you calm yourself i'll bring you downstairs and i'll buy you something to eat"
"i want nothing"
"what do you want to do?"
"nothing," he whispers.
"okay. let's go in the infirmary"
dan nods nervously and phil helps him so he can get up, then puts his arms around his waist and guides him.
"i missed you," dan whispers.
"i missed you too dan, i'm so sorry"
"it's okay"
"are you feeling better?"
"a little," he says and smiles.
they arrive and phil makes dan sit on a chair. "what's wrong?" the nurse asks.
"he didn't feel good but he's okay now, just.. maybe something to cheer him up? i mean, i don't know i'm not a doctor," he giggles.
"i'll give him something fresh to drink," she says and goes away.
phil looks at dan and smiles. "are you okay?" he asks and caresses his cheek with his thumb.
"yes," he answers.
"dan," he says and licks his lips. "i'm sorry i left you, i was just angry and i didn't understand what i was doing. also, i cried so hard because i missed you and i understood i lost a wonderful person but i thought you didn't want me and.. i'm sorry"
"you left me, why shouldn't i want you anymore? you left me no choice, you stopped talking to me without a reason and i thought it was my fault"
"it was my fault," he whispers. "i'm not expecting you to forgive me but-"
"in fact i'm not going to," dan smiles.
"i know," phil giggles and kisses his forehead. "why did you feel bad?"
"i was okay then.. anxiety attack, you know it always happens"
"i know," phil says. "i know dan"
"that's all you have to say?"
"i love you," he whispers and kisses his forehead. "i missed you so much, so so much. i'm sorry"
dan smiles and kisses him. phil smiles too, dan just kissed him.
"this is not a bedroom," the older nurse says and hands dan a glass.
"sorry," he smiles and takes it.
"dan," phil says when she goes away.
"mh?" he mumbles as he's drinking and he can't talk.
phil smiles and looks away. "nothing"
"you know you can tell me," dan says.
"it's just," he pauses. "you're gorgeous"
