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"What do you think is the meaning of life?" Dan asks.
"You've just finished crying Dan, don't think about these things," Phil chuckles.
"I'm not going to cry!" he yells. "I just want to have a chat, nothing more"
"I don't know," Phil says. "What do you think?" he asks a little uncertain.
"If I knew I would not be that crazy," he chuckles and hugs him stronger. "And then, I don't think that it makes sense"
"Yeah"
"Before I was born what did I feel? Did I see only black? And when I'll die it will be the same, it will be like I don't exist?"
"Well-"
"I think the fact that a woman has in her lap many potential children? How do all of them feel?"
"No Dan, they don't feel anything. They're just some cells, nothing more"
"Cells? No," he says and raises his chin who was resting on the other's chest and looks into his eyes. "What would be the sense of giving birth to some cells and then let it die again years later?"
"The course, all the life. Things that they do, the people they love," he says and smiles. "What they do. This is the way, be someone"
"I refuse to believe it," he mumble. "So I was just a cell that was created to earn money and make a decent living? That was my goal since years?"
"We can't know it Dan," he whispers. "If we knew it would not be so simple, everything would be easier. Don't you think it would be granted?"
"I think that it would prevent me from having these crisis," he chuckles slightly.
"Come on, do you want to watch a movie o-"
"Why are we so afraid of death if it's like sleeping? I think so," he whispers.
"Hand me the laptop?"
"Yeah," he nods and takes it passing it to him gently.
"Come here," he smiles and puts a hand around his neck resting his head on his chest, leaving a kiss on his forehead and stroking his hair.
"Thanks," Dan smiles.
"What movie do you want to watch? Anime?"
"Attack On Titan," he merely says, Phil nods going on the usual site and loading the episode.
"Alright?"
"Yes," he smiles and rubs his forehead against Phil shirt. "Oh Phil, I love you"
"I love you too baby, a lot," he chuckles. "Are you feeling better?"
"Yes," he smiles and careless of the episode that continues to go it alone attracts Phil to him for a kiss, Phil doesn't mind at all.
"The laptop," Phil chuckles because Dan just touched the screen with the leg.
"I don't particularly want to watch anime right now," he says and moves the laptop putting himself on Phil. "And then, I like this shirt you're wearing"
"Really?"
"Yes, but I'd like more if it was taken away," he smiles and takes it off.
"Dan!" he smiles.
