i'm here | m.e.

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adrabelle

''That slut is pregnant with my child.''  

Those words, replaying and replaying. I back up, not believing what he just said.

''That slut is pregnant with my child,'' Matt breathes out, walking up to me. Each step he took to come closer to me, the farther I'd get away from him.

''Get away from me,'' I push past him and up to Mahogany's room, hoping she gets the hint to follow behind me.

''No tears, no emotion, no relief,'' I whisper, walking into the room.

''What?''

''Is everything okay?"

''Matt,'' I turn around to Mahogany and Alexis as she closes the door. ''Riley is pregnant with his child.''

''Oh my gosh,'' Alexis shoots her eyes wide open.

''I'm not even surprised,'' Mahogany sighs, walking up to me for a hug.

''Why?"

''When you were gone, Matt didn't care about anything. He wasn't worried about anything and anyone. He didn't know any better.'' Mahogany says, looking down at the ground.

I'm surprised, but I shouldn't be at the same time. He specifically told me that he was reckless and if he was reckless then he wasn't thinking. He didn't think it through.

''How do you feel?'' Alexis says, walking up to me.

I look up at her, getting knocked out of my thoughts. ''Yeah, I'm just gonna sleep.''

''You can spend the night,'' Mahogany says, throwing  me some clothes. I slightly smile, thanking her and grab the clothes. I walk to her bathroom and shower. I wash my face and put on the big tee and my underwear that Mahogany gave me.

I walk out of the bathroom to a dark room. I'm guessing Mahogany and Alexis aren't taking showers. They didn't really do anything today, but me on the other hand, I went to the gym for three hours this morning.

I spread my arms and legs, making sure I didn't bump into anything. I find the bed and lay my body under the covers and close my eyes.

-

I sit up and turn my phone on for the time. 4:28a.m.

I've been getting bad dreams and I can't get into a deep sleep. I think it's because I'm not with Matt. Ever since we've been together, he has stayed at my place and that's been going on for weeks.

During the hours of me waking up, I've been thinking a lot. I can't be mad with Matt. I did, after all, promise him that I would be with him. If I dared to leave, he would have so much trouble with the baby.

I throw the sheets off of me and quietly exit Mahogany's room. The hallway was dark and it was scary. I quickly run down the hall, passing two doors and open Matt's bedroom door.

I close the door, silently and turn to the bed. Matt's snores filled the room which I always thought was cute. It wasn't loud, but it was soft and light.

I tip toe to the bed and shake Matt. "I can't sleep."

"Mhm?" Matt mumbles, still half asleep.

I sit on the bed and shake Matt until he wakes up. "I can't sleep."

"Come here, baby girl," Matt says in a raspy voice.

"I'm sorry," I mumble against his chest. "I'm not mad. I'm just pretty upset that you're having a baby with someone else which isn't me."

"I'm speechless Belle," Matt sits up. "How am I supposed to take care of this baby?"

"You and Riley could take care of the baby together," I mention, turning on the light. I really don't want to know that Matt will be having a baby with someone else. What if Matt starts to fall for Riley?

"Once the baby is born, she wants nothing to do with the baby," Matt says. "She doesn't want anything to do with the baby because it effects her relationship with Alex."

"How am I supposed to do this by myself?" Matt whispers. "I won't be able to go into my acting career if I have to take care of this baby."

"Can she get an abortion?" I ask, thinking of ideas.

"She's five months pregnant with the baby boy," Matt mumbles, playing with his thumbs. How did I not see the baby bump?

I grab Matt's face and make sure he looks into my eyes so that he knows that whatever I say is true. "Look, I'll help you. I'll take care of the baby. I know how important your acting career is."

Matt smiles and leans in for a kiss. I pull away and then turn off the lights. Matt pulls me into his chest and kisses my head. "I love you so much."

"I love you more,"

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