i'm here | m.e.

17

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I walk inside the house with Ashton in my arms and walk upstairs to his room that Mahogany and Alexis set up.

I put him to sleep in his crib and leave with the door slightly open just incase he cries.

I walk back downstairs and into Matt's office. Well he's not here. I walk back upstairs into our room. There he is.

"Whatever I did to make you upset, I'm sorry." I walk inside the room.

"Was it me mentioning who I was to Ashton?" I question him. He moves his head so that he looks at me and nods. "I-I don't know how I'm supposed to take care of Ashton. I don't want him to grow up without his mom. I don't want to be the person to tell him that you aren't his biological mom."

"Don't you think that hurts me enough?" My voice cracks.

"I'm gonna have to tell him sooner or later, I know, but if I wanted to start something," Matt coughs. I furrow my eyebrows at what he was trying to say. "If I wanted to start something, I want it to start with you."

"Matt," I sigh, looking down at him since he was still sitting on the bed.

"Whenever I hold Ashton, I feel like I'm betraying you. Ashton isn't me and you, it's me and Riley," Matt explains.

The way he's explaining everything to me right now is scaring me. I don't mind, it was in the past. It's done, but whatever Matt is trying to do, I feel is gonna break my heart.

"It's fine,"

"No, it's not. I won't be able to be with the baby often because of my career," Matt mentions. "This whole situation shouldn't be happening right now. It's just not the right time for a baby."

"Matt don't say anything else unless you will support me on this," I tell him, making sure all of his attention is on me. "I'm here."

"I'll always be here for you, with whatever you need. Don't stress out about it." I grab his face, getting on my knees. "I love you."

He smashes his lips on mine, holding my waist. My love for him is like an unending pleasure. I will help Matt, I mean it.

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forgive me for this boring and short chapter :(

-shekinah xoxo